Roughly: jealousy is an emotional primitive and the feelings you’re describing here are sums of jealousy(+other things.) I of course can’t know what’s in your head, but if you’re anything at all like me and you have had these feelings before, I suspect that you do experience jealousy, but are inserting arguments to project all feelings that involve it into a non-jealous subspace.
(Maybe addendum: I find it very easy to apply reasoning to my emotions, but very hard to causally intervene this way. Descriptions of the sort you provide here, something like ‘[emotion] feels like [fact, extrapolation of consequences, judgment of the expected intervention that fact will have on my goals]’, are exactly backwards to me. In my case this is a thought pattern that I’ve only ever used when I’m failing to admit that my idealized, goal-directed, reasoning self is not my realized self. I expect that this is not true for you, but is probably true for most people, and it’s possible that this difference in experiencing emotion is a driver of the dynamics described in OP.)
Very fair! That’s a difficult mindset to conceptualize for me, but having positive testimony like this is useful and informative.