EDIT: I got some very useful feedback from my atheist friend and I’m reorganizing this post.
Here it seems that your central point is that the reality of death is scary to confront from the perspective of your sincere atheism, and that you find it noble to confront your fear of this reality. Furthermore, you are angry at religious people who seem to have taken the easy way out by choosing to believe in lies rather than (a) take on the challenge of constructing meaning and (b) face the harsh truth of the finality of death, and who do not recognize your sacrifice in taking the harder road. You imply that science (as opposed to religion) is the best way of seeking truth.
TL;DR. I think I’m an exception to your implication that all religious people have taken the easy way out, while still agreeing that this may be true for many of them. I essentially agree with your view that reality can be harsh and death is scary. I wonder if seeking the truth can be achieved purely through scientific thinking or whether religious teachings can be helpful if taken with discretion—which is my experience.
My response is as follows:
1) My personal feelings about your post
2) My areas of agreement with you
3) My doubt about finding communities to support truth-seekers
3.5) My observations about open-mindedness within religion
4) My doubt about the adequacy of human-derived scientific knowledge in removing all biases
5) Things I don’t have time to write more about
1) My personal feelings about your post
I’m religious and I was triggered by this post. I don’t think I tried to take the easy road. I had a friend who claimed to be EMF-sensitive (electromagnetic field-sensitive) and I was trying to “scientifically” disprove his disease—doing sneaky experiments to see he if we really was bothered by wifi. Now I think that was a rather disrespectful thing to do, but that goes to show how much of a “militant” atheist I was. However, I agreed to join a yoga workshop from the Isha foundation because my friend claimed that I would believe him after the experience. Indeed, after 4 days, my worldview was not the same.
If you read that, thank you! I didn’t say it to try to convince you that you’re wrong about religion—I know it’s very unlikely that my experience would be compelling to you, and I don’t have many reasons to care about what you believe.
Also, apologies if you find that some of the following is poorly written or leaves out details. I have already spent 90 minutes writing this and I have to move on to some urgent tasks.
2) My areas of agreement with you
So now let me tell you all the ways I agree with you.
“the human condition involves a whole bunch of things that are kind of sucky.”
“it can be very difficult to find a source of meaning to ground our motivation in”
“the difficulty of connecting with other people despite differences”
“true solution to each of these problems...difficult never ending journey of discovery of the self.. part of the project of civilization should be to slowly build up the cultural edifice required to solve these problems.”
“religion” often functions as a “hacky patch that kind of helps...”
“religion” often causes one to “contort and utterly trash your epistemics”
“not everyone should embark on the difficult path of accepting nothing but the truth.”
All agreed!
And yet, despite the difficulties, I can wholeheartedly identify with you as someone who has tried to accept nothing but the truth.
3) My doubt about finding communities to support truth-seekers
However, the practical challenge of discerning the truth and fighting against the emotional and social gradients that oppose the truth is indeed difficult. I used to think that the LessWrong community or CFAR could be helpful for this task, but I’ve lost confidence in these communities. You can see that I rarely post here. Academia, I found, was also lacking in sincere truth-seekers. I went to Stanford for graduate school, and now I work at the National Institutes of Health.
3.5) My observations about open-mindedness within religion
I attend a protestant church, and I completely agree that most religious people are unfortunately very closed-minded. However, I believe that God also wants to help religious people become more open-minded, and He gradually leads people within traditional religions to expand their worldview. I can give you one interesting anecdote to chew on. As you probably know, the majority of Christians are quite dogmatic and believe that our faith is the only path to salvation. However, you can see several examples of prominent Christians who became more tolerant as they matured. Billy Graham is the example that stands out the most to me, as near the end of the life he was stated that he believed believers from other religions might also be saved:
Well, Christianity and being a true believer—you know, I think there’s the Body of Christ. This comes from all the Christian groups around the world, outside the Christian groups. I think everybody that loves Christ, or knows Christ, whether they’re conscious of it or not, they’re members of the Body of Christ. And I don’t think that we’re going to see a great sweeping revival, that will turn the whole world to Christ at any time. I think James answered that, the Apostle James in the first council in Jerusalem, when he said that God’s purpose for this age is to call out a people for his name. And that’s what God is doing today, He’s calling people out of the world for His name, whether they come from the Muslim world, or the Buddhist world, or the Christian world or the non-believing world, they are members of the Body of Christ because they’ve been called by God. They may not even know the name of Jesus but they know in their hearts that they need something that they don’t have, and they turn to the only light that they have, and I think they are saved, and that they’re going to be with us in heaven.
Within protestant Christianity, there is a movement of progressive Christians such as Brian McLaren, author of “Faith after Doubt: Why Your Beliefs Stopped Working and What to Do About It” who are taking a more open-minded view of faith. A female missionary, who had several generations of missionaries in her family, came to our church to talk about some of McLaren’s ideas. People in the audience were speechless because these ideas were so contrary to our prevailing dogmatism, and yet this missionaries’ credentials and background in coming from several generations of serving Jesus was unassailable.
These are some of the observations I have seen from within my faith which, combined with my own personal experience, makes me convinced that religion and open-mindedness are not as incompatible as you claim.
4) My doubt about the adequacy of human-derived scientific knowledge in removing all biases
My perspective is that just as religion often creates biases that prevent us from being able to reason or think about the truth clearly, scientific culture has its own biases as well. Science as an aspirational ideal should in principle empower us to discover the truth and free us from bias, but the problem is that the scientific knowledge that we actually have access to is already contaminated with biases originating from the biased humans who have been doing the science. I can name one bias that scientific materialists may be more vulnerable to than sincere religious adherents: and that is the fear of death. Once you can think about your own physical death with reduced emotional reaction, it is possible to see more clearly some of the lies that you tell yourself out of the instinct of self-preservation. That is why Christianity teaches one to rely on Biblical beliefs and a sense of a relationship with God to overcome fear of death and to pursue the goal of cultivating humility—which in one sense is a freedom from the effect of the egoistic lies we tell ourselves as a result of our fear of death.
5) Things I don’t have time to write more about
I’m happy to go into more detail about my experiences and my research into religion and spirituality. You mention that religion can prevent people from trying to find their own meaning in life or to confront the reality of death. My experience has been that while this appears to be true of a small fraction of religious people, many believers still struggle just as much as atheists in terms of trying to find meaning or trying to accept the reality of death. Furthermore, I do not think religion, insofar as it has been humanly constructed, has been designed to spare believers from these questions, and I think that texts such as the Book of Job would support my view. And does religion spare us from having to find meaning in our lives? I am not quite sure how to answer it. Perhaps the problem of finding meaning is more challenging or urgent for an atheist. However, it still exists for the believer. While we are encouraged to trust in God’s plan for us, it’s not so simple to just stop thinking about what we are supposed to do here. Perhaps God doesn’t tell us everything, so we also have to figure it out ourselves, just like you. In some ways you could see atheism as taking the easy way out, since nothing you do has permanent consequence. From my belief system, on the other hand, there’s no decision I am justified in taking lightly, since it all has eternal consequences and my work will be evaluated by a perfect judge. Sometimes that feels like an amplification of the problem of meaning—I not only have to find the meaning of my life overall, but I have to figure out the meaning of every single moment in the context of eternity.
> Do you actually have any uhh factual disagreements with atheists?
Are you asking if there are any statements about the world where I am 100% certain, and where a large majority of atheists would be 100% certain of the negation of that statement? There are very few statements where I am 100% certain, so I can say the answer is no.
EDIT:
But I think you are asking this in response to my claims about the inadequacy of science. Science postulates entities which are not directly observed, but inferred from data, and uses the properties of those unobserved entities to make predictions about the future. It is with regards to these inferred entities and yet unconfirmed predictions where I think I would have the most disagreements with folks who base their worldviews on mainstream scientific consensus. However, this is not necessarily because of my theism. There are non-religious philosophers who are skeptical of how empiricism is deployed in science who would also disagree with either the predictions, or the confidence attached to those predictions, that follow from scientific consensus.
The best example I can give of a domain where I might tend to disagree with scientific consensus is with regards to the placebo effect in medicine. The scientific consensus would probably be that there is some unknown causal chain between conscious thought and the low-level processes in the body related to healing and recovery. However, I think the effect is too strong to be explained by such hypothetical processes, and there must be some more direct causal mechanism between conscious thought and large-scale physical changes in the rest of the body.
> Did all the stuff from Old Testament happened, or is it all weird and misleading metaphor?
With regards to the Torah and biblical prophecies, I largely agree with Jordan Peterson’s view: stories in scripture are symbolic representations of patterns that have been distilled from countless other stories and people’s experience through untold generations. There are some books of the Bible, such as the books of Samuel and Chronicles, which are harder to interpret as metaphor—it seems there must have literally existed a King David.
> Was Jesus a spellcaster or just an inspired guy with awesome ideas?
If the Gospels portray actual history, I am not sure of the exact nature of Jesus’ miracles. In several cases, the success of the miracle is attributed to the beneficiaries’ faith. Also, Jesus’ opponents seem to be at such an extreme level of disbelief of public miracles that it is hard to attribute merely due to their ideological dislike of Jesus. Even Jesus disciples seem to have a strange amnesia of his recent miracles (Mark 8:19-21). My interpretation is that the scripture itself dissuades the reader from thinking that Jesus’ miracles were straightforward objective facts. My current speculation is that the strange nature of Jesus’ miracles is intended to point at the relationship between our supposedly objective reality and spiritual faith.
> Did God micromanage the creation of humans or did he outsource it to a meatgrinder of evolution?
My interpretation of Christian faith is that it can only be compatible with a God that exists not only outside of physical reality, but is not even governed by mathematical description—indeed, mathematical truth is created by God to suit His purposes. Evolutionary processes governed by mathematical laws are a faithful expression of God’s intent and not independent of His will. We cannot define miracles as God’s intervention in the natural order, because the natural order and supernatural miracles are both instigated by God. What we regard as miraculous seems to be more of an expression of our own subjective expectations, but God also takes that into consideration.
Adopting such a transcendent view of God, in my view, also potentially resolves issues related to pre-determination. God already knows what each of us would have freely chosen (whatever that means) and then created the starting conditions of a deterministic universe so that the deterministic outcomes of the laws of the universe exactly replicate the choices that we would have made freely. Caveat 1: this is just a theological theory, not my current belief about God. Caveat 2: a lot of philosophical heavy-lifting is being done by the concept of “free choice” here which is not at all defined.