Does that mean I should disavow it all? Go away and build something else and new entirely further away from the corruption and the horrors? Or should I try to fix it and improve it? And how much egg-breaking and moral norm violation should I tolerate?
What are your strategic options?
In the case of someone witnessing the horrors of colonialism, they might not have had very many/any options that would stop colonialism from happening, but leaving and doing something else wouldn’t have helped. So the thing to do in that case is do what you can, to the best of your ability, to ameliorate the situation. “Die with dignity”, as in, don’t give up even if it seems like there’s no path to victory, and do what you can even if you expect the ultimate outcome will not be good, but don’t actually do things that metaphorically “kill” you (remove your ability to act) unless you’ve thought about it very carefully.
The meme of the serenity prayer seems relevant here.
I wouldn’t want to be in your shoes, I expect it is extremely hard.
Honestly, this did make it clearer for me what might be going through your head. I was confused, and it makes a bit more sense now.
I do not think there were very many people, if any, whose individual abandonment of the American project would have stopped colonialism. So the actual choice is “let it happen without your involvement” and “let it happen while trying to make it less bad”, rather than “stop it from happening by throwing your body into the gears” (not an actual option for very many people, if any).
I think if the founders had decided the horrors were too much and they weren’t going to do this whole declaration of independence founding of a country thing but instead would go knit some socks, some country or countries would have been founded on some principles less good, and colonialism would have continued.
I’d been thinking over the weekend about what the “colonialism didn’t happen” counterfactual would have to look like, and it seems like it would require the substantial replacement of the values and cultures of multiple European countries, the effects of which would be very unpredictable. There was a lot of momentum behind colonialism, and “America doesn’t get founded because the founders turn away in horror” wouldn’t have stopped it, I don’t think. Maybe “no colonialism” would have prevented the founding of the US as we know it (quite possible) or the spread of democratic values in the world (seems less likely to me), but “no US” wouldn’t have stopped colonialism even in the area covered by the US, I’m pretty sure.
If the founders who spent their efforts building support for founding a nation around the ideals of the declaration of independence had instead put their efforts, collectively, towards blocking colonialism… I don’t know what would have happened, but I expect we’d still have had colonialism. Maybe a less bad version, but smallpox and racism would still have been present, and colonists would still have expanded into the New World.