I’m wrote a book about why all knowledge of the truth is fundamentally uncertain. Give it a read!
I’ve also written a lot about AI safety, personal development, and Buddhism, among other things. Most of that’s here on LessWrong, but there’s also some on my blog, Uncertain Updates.
I get this. I’ve felt this way at times. I was extremely early on AI safety and existential risks as a concern, starting back around 1999, and really getting going in 2001. My largest impact on AI is likely in some combination of being early and building the movement by my mere presence enabling it to grow, talking to people years ago, getting them more engaged, and deliberately steering my career away from anything that smelled of capabilities research.
There’s no acclaim for being this type of guy, though. It’s quiet. And it kinda has to be, because how would anyone measure the impact I had? Maybe my marginal impact was actually zero, or negative, and if I had never heard of AI maybe everything would have gone approximately the same. It’s quite hard to tell.
My only real rewards are all of you—that maybe everyone gets to live and that, even if we don’t, at least I got to spend my adult life with friends who cared about the same things I did.