Then I came back and approached it from a “I just want to have meetups as often as I can, do as good a job as I can, and if it ends up just being a somewhat awkward hangout, whatever it’ll be fine.” This helped tremendously.
Is awkward actually something that happened?
I have the feeling for our meetups the failure isn’t awkward which mostly never happens but “wasn’t as fun or insightful as the attendees were looking for”.
I have the feeling for our meetups the failure isn’t awkward which mostly never happens but “wasn’t as fun or insightful as the attendees were looking for”.
Basically I meant the latter, and it might just be a thing about me that I parse that as awkward (in particular when I’m afraid other people aren’t having fun/insight)
Is awkward actually something that happened?
I have the feeling for our meetups the failure isn’t awkward which mostly never happens but “wasn’t as fun or insightful as the attendees were looking for”.
Basically I meant the latter, and it might just be a thing about me that I parse that as awkward (in particular when I’m afraid other people aren’t having fun/insight)