I was just reminded of this post of yours in the suggested posts section at the bottom of this page. Based on that, I especially recommend:
Reading Existential Angst Factory;
Focusing on solving the biggest practical problems in your everyday life;
Talking to your psychiatrist about experimenting with different medications, if appropriate;
Finding a good talk therapist, if you’re able.
Also [Her Voice Is A Backwards Record] (https://ozybrennan.substack.com/p/her-voice-is-a-backwards-record).