I just reread Scott’s review of John von Neumann’s bio The Man From The Future by Ananyo Bhattacharya, and it made me realise something else that felt off to me about the OP, which was that the OP’s insecurity seems to be primarily social status-related(?), whereas John’s seemed to be primarily existential. (This probably influenced his extreme views, like advocating for nuking Russia ASAP.) Some quotes:
[von Neumann] attributed his generation’s success to “a coincidence of some cultural factors” that produced “a feeling of extreme insecurity in the individuals, and the necessity to produce the unusual or face extinction. In other words, [the Jews’] recognition that the tolerant climate of Hungary might change overnight propelled some to preternatural efforts to succeed.
(FWIW Scott doesn’t buy this as a differentiating factor, but that’s not what I’m pointing at)
Throughout all this excellence, Bhattacharya keeps coming back to the theme of precariousness. Max von Neumann didn’t teach his kids five languages just because he wanted them to be sophisticated. He was preparing for them to have to flee Hungary in a hurry. This proved prescient; when John was fifteen, Communists took over Hungary, targeting rich families like the von Neumanns. A few months later, counterrevolutionaries defeated the Communists—then massacred thousands of Jews, who they suspected of collaborating. The von Neumanns survived by fleeing the country at opportune times, and maybe by being too rich to be credibly suspected of communist sympathies. But John’s “feeling of extreme insecurity…and…necessity to produce the unusual or face extinction” certainly wasn’t without basis. This was, perhaps, an education of a different sort.
Scott’s review also touches on the thing about advocating for nuking Russia ASAP, quoting his daughter Marina on his hatred of totalitarianism:
Throughout much of his career, he led a double life: as an intellectual leader in the ivory tower of pure mathematics and as a man of action, in constant demand as an advisor, consultant and decision-maker to what is sometimes called the military-industrial complex of the United States. My own belief is that these two aspects of his double life, his wide-ranging activities as well as his strictly intellectual pursuits, were motivated by two profound convictions. The first was the overriding responsibility that each of us has to make full use of whatever intellectual capabilities we were endowed with. He had the scientist’s passion for learning and discovery for its own sake and the genius’s ego-driven concern for the significance and durability of his own contributions. The second was the critical importance of an environment of political freedom for the pursuit of the first, and for the welfare of mankind in general.
I’m convinced, in fact, that all his involvements with the halls of power were driven by his sense of the fragility of that freedom. By the beginning of the 1930s, if not even earlier, he became convinced that the lights of civilization would be snuffed out all over Europe by the spread of totalitarianism from the right: Nazism and Fascism. So he made an unequivocal commitment to his home in the new world and to fight to preserve and reestablish freedom from that new beachhead.
In the 1940s and 1950s, he was equally convinced that the threat to civilization now came from totalitarianism on the left, that is, Soviet Communism, and his commitment was just as unequivocal to fighting it with whatever weapons lay at hand, scientific and economic as well as military. It was a matter of utter indifference to him, I believe, whether the threat came from the right or from the left. What motivated both his intense involvement in the issues of the day and his uncompromisingly hardline attitude was his belief in the overriding importance of political freedom, his strong sense of its continuing fragility, and his conviction that it was in the United States, and the passionate defense of the United States, that its best hope lay.
I just reread Scott’s review of John von Neumann’s bio The Man From The Future by Ananyo Bhattacharya, and it made me realise something else that felt off to me about the OP, which was that the OP’s insecurity seems to be primarily social status-related(?), whereas John’s seemed to be primarily existential. (This probably influenced his extreme views, like advocating for nuking Russia ASAP.) Some quotes:
(FWIW Scott doesn’t buy this as a differentiating factor, but that’s not what I’m pointing at)
Scott’s review also touches on the thing about advocating for nuking Russia ASAP, quoting his daughter Marina on his hatred of totalitarianism: