Perhaps more precisely, I seem to have three distinct but somewhat related mental states: normal sadness, normal my-brain-needs-sleep sleepiness, and this strange hybrid between the two that doesn’t seem to have any specific cause and I can’t get rid of by either trying to sleep or trying to cheer myself up.
And I almost never actually look forward to sleep—the only time I actually want to be asleep is when I’ve just woken up and am feeling this strange “fake sleepiness” in which I’m just lying in bed with my head in a fog, having no particular reason to get up but not actually sleeping either, conscious but not actually thinking about anything much. (It’s kind of hard to describe these things.)
I’m also taking a medication (Effexor) that seems to have some effect on my sleep; if I miss a pill, I have withdrawal symptoms related to sleepiness and sadness.
Perhaps more precisely, I seem to have three distinct but somewhat related mental states: normal sadness, normal my-brain-needs-sleep sleepiness, and this strange hybrid between the two that doesn’t seem to have any specific cause and I can’t get rid of by either trying to sleep or trying to cheer myself up.
And I almost never actually look forward to sleep—the only time I actually want to be asleep is when I’ve just woken up and am feeling this strange “fake sleepiness” in which I’m just lying in bed with my head in a fog, having no particular reason to get up but not actually sleeping either, conscious but not actually thinking about anything much. (It’s kind of hard to describe these things.)
Is there any chance that sometimes you make yourself feel sleepy in order not to feel sadness?
I don’t know.
I’m also taking a medication (Effexor) that seems to have some effect on my sleep; if I miss a pill, I have withdrawal symptoms related to sleepiness and sadness.