I empathize a lot with your position and appreciate the candidness.
Kind of tangential, but when I see someone write things like:
I see being vegan as the proof that I’m not a psychopathic monster
I think about my therapist goading me into similar admissions and letting me hear it out loud and realizing I don’t want to be that way.
Now that you’ve named it, you don’t have to keep this emotional response to veganism. Of course it’s up to you, and it takes work. But if it’s causing distress, it is solvable.
Apologies if this comment is too parental—I think it’s relevant to the discussion because we all have deep emotional investment in our diets. If you find your emotional reactions are preventing you from changing in a way you’d consciously like to (at least try) changing toward, you can first work on those emotional reactions to lower the friction of change.
I empathize a lot with your position and appreciate the candidness.
Kind of tangential, but when I see someone write things like:
I think about my therapist goading me into similar admissions and letting me hear it out loud and realizing I don’t want to be that way.
Now that you’ve named it, you don’t have to keep this emotional response to veganism. Of course it’s up to you, and it takes work. But if it’s causing distress, it is solvable.
Apologies if this comment is too parental—I think it’s relevant to the discussion because we all have deep emotional investment in our diets. If you find your emotional reactions are preventing you from changing in a way you’d consciously like to (at least try) changing toward, you can first work on those emotional reactions to lower the friction of change.