A sentiment that didn’t quite make it into the piece is that my anger and grief has been transformed into steadfastness by my love for her. The idea for this post came from a sense of determination that her death would mean something to others. That steadfastness has also given new fuel to my other projects. I’m determined to get my book finished in time to influence the course of AI. I’m also determined to live the best life I can, and one worthy of my mom’s sense of fun, if we really do only have dozens of months left.
That seems nice. I have not acquired steadfastness (yet (growth mindset?)) but perhaps “find things from which I could justifiably draw steadfastness as a resulting apparent trait” would be a useful tactic to try to apply. I have mostly optimized for flexibility, such as to be able to react to whatever happens, and then be able to nudge everything closer back towards The Form Of The Good… but the practical upshot doesn’t look like steadfastness from the outside, I don’t think.
Mom would have approved of less “apparent chaos from a distance without the ability to see the causal details” in my life. One of her folksy mantras was “be normal and good” and it was a family joke that my brother and I would always object “we can’t do that! look at the world, you have to pick one!”
Sorry that you also lost your mom. đź«‚
A sentiment that didn’t quite make it into the piece is that my anger and grief has been transformed into steadfastness by my love for her. The idea for this post came from a sense of determination that her death would mean something to others. That steadfastness has also given new fuel to my other projects. I’m determined to get my book finished in time to influence the course of AI. I’m also determined to live the best life I can, and one worthy of my mom’s sense of fun, if we really do only have dozens of months left.
That seems nice. I have not acquired steadfastness (yet (growth mindset?)) but perhaps “find things from which I could justifiably draw steadfastness as a resulting apparent trait” would be a useful tactic to try to apply. I have mostly optimized for flexibility, such as to be able to react to whatever happens, and then be able to nudge everything closer back towards The Form Of The Good… but the practical upshot doesn’t look like steadfastness from the outside, I don’t think.
Mom would have approved of less “apparent chaos from a distance without the ability to see the causal details” in my life. One of her folksy mantras was “be normal and good” and it was a family joke that my brother and I would always object “we can’t do that! look at the world, you have to pick one!”