Probably crazy, yes. Don’t feel bad, all humans are.
But when you lead with ‘I can’t shake my belief’, that indicates an internal conflict that part of you doesn’t believe, and since there’s no evidence that can resolve the question, you probably could use professional help to figure out how to believe more mainstream illusions that are easier and more satisfying for most humans.
Probably crazy, yes. Don’t feel bad, all humans are.
But when you lead with ‘I can’t shake my belief’, that indicates an internal conflict that part of you doesn’t believe, and since there’s no evidence that can resolve the question, you probably could use professional help to figure out how to believe more mainstream illusions that are easier and more satisfying for most humans.