Hi, I’ve found I have an intense psychosomatic reaction to certain bands of blue lighting. I bought a powerful blue lamp on Amazon simply because I liked the color blue, and found it does something interesting to me when I sit in a dark room with this lamp switched on. Not always, because I build a high tolerance to it if I do it too many times back to back, but it’s happened often enough.
It feels like a combination of tingling heat, mild adrenaline rush and a feeling of gentle compression on either side of about L1/T12, as if someone has reached right in and is massaging my adrenal glands. I’ve measured my heart rate in case I simply imagined the sensation. It was in the 90-100 range when my resting is 70-80. Most search results for ‘blue light’ are negative, but this is pleasant, not like anxiety. It feels almost like an atypical form of ASMR that involves adrenaline instead of sleepiness.
I understand that this could be purely imaginary, but then why is blue light causing me to imagine something so bizarre and so specific? Any ideas? I have some more extensive logs and notes about it if anyone wants them.
Have you been tested for epilepsy?
Otherwise this is like a meditation focussed state?
Wait, I’m confused. What does this have in common with epilepsy?
I guess it overlaps partly with meditation but there’s a difference between just being focused and actively having an adrenaline rush. Also that ‘soft foamroll compression’ feeling—where is that coming from?
Flickering lights may cause and are used to test for epilepsy. From that a very far fetched hypothesis is that you may just be more sensitive to blue light. People do get religious visions staring at lights, can be explained by minor seizures. So all just a very wild guess on my part ;-)
People who are having seizures probably don’t stay lucid enough to win ultrabullet chess games online. As far as I know.