It’s not what I’m most proud of publishing. But maybe I’ll get a chance to see if I’m not too biased.
At Gwern’s request, I’m posting my story here on LessWrong, which starts by showing my peak and ends with the shit I did, perhaps all to get to that question:
What to do when I feel like I’m in a storm with no way out?
And it turns out this isn’t just an analogy, also scientists use a similar condition to to study depression in animals. Do you know? In this experiment, scientists place a rat in water with no way out, and when the rat realizes there is no way out of the water, it stops struggling, and the researchers observe how different depression treatments change this behavior.
As I don’t trust medicines or therapist very much and I can’t do genetic improvement, so: What are your most powerful ideas that could help me when I’m drowning in a storm?
What I’ve been trying
In particular, I tried several medications, but that diminished my decision-making power.
I tried several therapies; I haven’t found any rational or evolutionary psychologists. I it seems they generally say unicorn things like: you lost your bus, be your own bus.
I admitted myself. And when I could no longer afford the hospitalization, I told the police I committed a crime, because I no longer trusted myself.
I’ve been reading the SSC, I dedicate myself to a good dream, meditating…
What I’m trying to do now:
Assumption: My depression is correlated with a state of cognitive biases in my memories and expectations.
Prediction: If my depression is caused by biases in my memories and expectations, I will need to further study and classify my memories.
Intervention: Create a system to train the practice of “mapping useful memories and expectations” to not only relive a memory but also update a model with evidence.
Measurement: Compare the frequency of ideas of self-destruction.
Results so far: from an average of 13 thoughts of self-harm per day to 2 per month. *The result, can be caused by many other factors.
*In the comments I publish 3 answers from differents AIs for this post
How to survive in the storm of uncertainty (and shit)?
It’s not what I’m most proud of publishing. But maybe I’ll get a chance to see if I’m not too biased.
At Gwern’s request, I’m posting my story here on LessWrong, which starts by showing my peak and ends with the shit I did, perhaps all to get to that question:
What to do when I feel like I’m in a storm with no way out?
And it turns out this isn’t just an analogy, also scientists use a similar condition to to study depression in animals. Do you know?
In this experiment, scientists place a rat in water with no way out, and when the rat realizes there is no way out of the water, it stops struggling, and the researchers observe how different depression treatments change this behavior.
As I don’t trust medicines or therapist very much and I can’t do genetic improvement, so: What are your most powerful ideas that could help me when I’m drowning in a storm?
What I’ve been trying
In particular, I tried several medications, but that diminished my decision-making power.
I tried several therapies; I haven’t found any rational or evolutionary psychologists. I it seems they generally say unicorn things like: you lost your bus, be your own bus.
I admitted myself. And when I could no longer afford the hospitalization, I told the police I committed a crime, because I no longer trusted myself.
I’ve been reading the SSC, I dedicate myself to a good dream, meditating…
What I’m trying to do now:
Assumption: My depression is correlated with a state of cognitive biases in my memories and expectations.
Prediction: If my depression is caused by biases in my memories and expectations, I will need to further study and classify my memories.
Intervention: Create a system to train the practice of “mapping useful memories and expectations” to not only relive a memory but also update a model with evidence.
Measurement: Compare the frequency of ideas of self-destruction.
Results so far: from an average of 13 thoughts of self-harm per day to 2 per month. *The result, can be caused by many other factors.
*In the comments I publish 3 answers from differents AIs for this post