This comment has been on my mind a lot the past week—not because I’m not ambitious, but because I’ve always been ambitious (intellectually at least) and frustrated in my ambitions. I’ve always had goals that I thought were important and neglected, I always directly pursued them from a socially marginal position rather than trying to make money first (or whatever people do when they put off their real ambitions), but I can’t say I ever had a decisive breakthrough, certainly not to recognition. So I only have partial progress on a scattered smorgasbord of unfulfilled agendas, and meanwhile, after OpenAI’s “o3 Christmas” and the imminent inauguration of an e/acc administration in the USA, it looks more than ever that we are out of time. I would be deeply unsurprised if it’s all over by the end of the year.
I’m left with choices like (1) concentrate on family in the final months (2) patch together what I have and use AI to quickly make the best of it (3) throw myself into AI safety. In practice they overlap, I’m doing all three, but there are tensions between them, and I feel the frustration of being badly positioned while also thinking I have no time for the meta-task of improving my position.
This comment has been on my mind a lot the past week—not because I’m not ambitious, but because I’ve always been ambitious (intellectually at least) and frustrated in my ambitions. I’ve always had goals that I thought were important and neglected, I always directly pursued them from a socially marginal position rather than trying to make money first (or whatever people do when they put off their real ambitions), but I can’t say I ever had a decisive breakthrough, certainly not to recognition. So I only have partial progress on a scattered smorgasbord of unfulfilled agendas, and meanwhile, after OpenAI’s “o3 Christmas” and the imminent inauguration of an e/acc administration in the USA, it looks more than ever that we are out of time. I would be deeply unsurprised if it’s all over by the end of the year.
I’m left with choices like (1) concentrate on family in the final months (2) patch together what I have and use AI to quickly make the best of it (3) throw myself into AI safety. In practice they overlap, I’m doing all three, but there are tensions between them, and I feel the frustration of being badly positioned while also thinking I have no time for the meta-task of improving my position.