And on a more micro-level, living knowing that I and everyone else have one year left to live, and that it’s my fault, sounds utterly agonizing.
Earlier you say:
or frankly even if anyone who continues to exist after I die has fun or not or dies or not, because I will be dead, and at that point, from my prospective, the universe may as well not exist anymore.
How are these compatible? You don’t care if all other humans die after you die unless you are responsible?
That’s pretty much it! If everyone in the world was set to die four minutes after I died, and this was just an immutable fact of the universe, then that would be super unfortunate, but oh well, I can’t do anything about it, so I shouldn’t really care that much. In the situation in which I more directly cause/choose, not only have I cut my and everyone else’s lives short to just a year, I also am directly responsible, and could have chosen to just not do that!
Earlier you say:
How are these compatible? You don’t care if all other humans die after you die unless you are responsible?
That’s pretty much it! If everyone in the world was set to die four minutes after I died, and this was just an immutable fact of the universe, then that would be super unfortunate, but oh well, I can’t do anything about it, so I shouldn’t really care that much. In the situation in which I more directly cause/choose, not only have I cut my and everyone else’s lives short to just a year, I also am directly responsible, and could have chosen to just not do that!