It would start when I was playing a mediocre video game and grinding or otherwise having a generally mediocre time. I’d start feeling like it was pointless to try to 100% the game because nobody else is going to care and I wasn’t having much fun anyway, so all I’m doing is pursuing an arbitrary goal I set myself for no reason. This would lead into questioning playing video games at all (they’re pointless, right?) and questioning the point of more and more things until it would feel there wasn’t anything at all I could do that would be worth the effort. And I didn’t like the headspace I’d end up in.
So now, when I start wondering why I’m pursuing an arbitrary and stupid goal while not having any obviously more appealing alternative, I tell myself I’m doing it because otherwise I start to lose the motivation to pursue goals at all.
Additionally, mediocre video games would become much, much more appealing when I had some work to avoid doing… I think it has something to do with the thrill of being “bad”...
Something that I used to do that seems related:
It would start when I was playing a mediocre video game and grinding or otherwise having a generally mediocre time. I’d start feeling like it was pointless to try to 100% the game because nobody else is going to care and I wasn’t having much fun anyway, so all I’m doing is pursuing an arbitrary goal I set myself for no reason. This would lead into questioning playing video games at all (they’re pointless, right?) and questioning the point of more and more things until it would feel there wasn’t anything at all I could do that would be worth the effort. And I didn’t like the headspace I’d end up in.
So now, when I start wondering why I’m pursuing an arbitrary and stupid goal while not having any obviously more appealing alternative, I tell myself I’m doing it because otherwise I start to lose the motivation to pursue goals at all.
Additionally, mediocre video games would become much, much more appealing when I had some work to avoid doing… I think it has something to do with the thrill of being “bad”...