My life places me in a position to observe an uncommon number of people repenting and trying to change. As you might expect, humans being what we are, few accomplish their goal.
A fact that I’ve observed is that NONE of those who other themselves and blame the shard get it done.
If someone says “I’ve got a terrible temper”, he will still hit. If he says “I hit my girlfriend”, he might stop.
If someone says “I have shitty executive function”, he will still be late. If he says “I broke my promise”, he might change.
So, when you say “I have an addiction”, I’m a bit concerned. A LW truism is that we don’t have brains, we are brains. We aren’t ghosts manning machines, we are machines.
I think it is some old “devil made me do it”, stuff. The “other me” isn’t real, so energy spent fighting him is wasted. Effort spent changing my behavior might bear fruit.
I’m reading a lot into phrasing, so if this isn’t you, my bad. Just...my advice… be sure to own your stuff man. You either “have an addiction”, or “screwed some randos without protection”, and my experience suggests that thinking of it as the second one will help you more.
A fact that I’ve observed is that NONE of those who other themselves and blame the shard get it done.
I don’t smoke meth!
If someone says “I’ve got a terrible temper”, he will still hit. If he says “I hit my girlfriend”, he might stop. If someone says “I have shitty executive function”, he will still be late. If he says “I broke my promise”, he might change.
Wow, I never thought of it like that. So internal attributions lead to antisocial behaviour, compared to external attributions which lead to behaviour change?
I’m reading a lot into phrasing, so if this isn’t you, my bad. Just...my advice… be sure to own your stuff man.
I think you are on to something, but I find it a bit hard to understand.
You either “have an addiction”, or “screwed some randos without protection”, and my experience suggests that thinking of it as the second one will help you more.
I think you are right. It’s just that I feel so shamed thinking of the second one. I can feel psychological defences like denial and rationalisations coming to my mind while I type. I screwed some random without protection. I am a dumb person.
Sorry, I didn’t mean that to be what you took from it.
I used to be fat. ( I still am, but not nearly to the same extent) Like, Jabba fat. My parents got doctors to say that I had an eating disorder, and maybe I did.
Othering my appetite never helped me. Like “I have an eating disorder” focused my energy on something (my disorder) that didn’t have a mind. It couldn’t get tired, or bored...it didn’t exist. It’s like “fighting” cancer.
But that doesn’t mean that what worked was thinking “I’m a glutton”.
When you say that “I am a dumb person”, it isn’t any closer to a thought you can act on. Kicking yourself when you are down feels good (or, at least, it did for me), it feels like “paying” for the behavior, but that’s just thoughts. It doesn’t actually change stuff.
I was shooting for more “I am a person who had unprotected sex with sketchy folks at place X”. That feels, ‘actionable’, if you will, to me. Like, if the problem is a sex addiction, I dunno what the solution is. If the problem is being a dumb person, I dunno what the solution is. But if the problem is going to a place and doing stuff, there are a bunch of solutions.
1: Carry protection, everywhere. Put it in something that you carry everywhere (wallet, little thingy on your car keys, cell phone case, whatever). If you ever screw someone sketchy, make sure you take it out and use it. If they aren’t willing, maybe that’s a spur to reconsider?
2: Enlist the help of the dudes who run the place. Tell them if they see you there, you will give them ten thousand dollars, or however much money would sting. Ask them, as friends, to kick you out. Tell them you have leprosy. Whatever words you have to say to make sure you aren’t welcome back there.
3: If this place is pay to play, then ration your funds. Each morning put exactly as much cash as you’ll need that day in your wallet, and don’t carry a credit card.
I don’t know if any of these could work for you, but something similar might. A behavior that you don’t want to repeat can always be made more inconvenient. That’s what helped me out with eating too much. I hope that you can do a similar thing to get yourself a different habit.
DBT combines standard cognitive behavioral techniques for emotion regulation and reality-testing with concepts of distress tolerance, acceptance, and mindful awareness largely derived from Buddhist meditative practice. DBT is the first therapy that has been experimentally demonstrated to be generally effective in treating BPD.[8][9] The first randomized clinical trial of DBT showed reduced rates of suicidal gestures, psychiatric hospitalizations, and treatment drop-outs when compared to treatment as usual.[4] A meta-analysis found that DBT reached moderate effects in individuals with borderline personality disorder.[10]
My life places me in a position to observe an uncommon number of people repenting and trying to change. As you might expect, humans being what we are, few accomplish their goal.
A fact that I’ve observed is that NONE of those who other themselves and blame the shard get it done. If someone says “I’ve got a terrible temper”, he will still hit. If he says “I hit my girlfriend”, he might stop. If someone says “I have shitty executive function”, he will still be late. If he says “I broke my promise”, he might change.
So, when you say “I have an addiction”, I’m a bit concerned. A LW truism is that we don’t have brains, we are brains. We aren’t ghosts manning machines, we are machines.
I think it is some old “devil made me do it”, stuff. The “other me” isn’t real, so energy spent fighting him is wasted. Effort spent changing my behavior might bear fruit.
I’m reading a lot into phrasing, so if this isn’t you, my bad. Just...my advice… be sure to own your stuff man. You either “have an addiction”, or “screwed some randos without protection”, and my experience suggests that thinking of it as the second one will help you more.
I don’t smoke meth!
Wow, I never thought of it like that. So internal attributions lead to antisocial behaviour, compared to external attributions which lead to behaviour change?
I think you are on to something, but I find it a bit hard to understand.
I think you are right. It’s just that I feel so shamed thinking of the second one. I can feel psychological defences like denial and rationalisations coming to my mind while I type. I screwed some random without protection. I am a dumb person.
Sorry, I didn’t mean that to be what you took from it.
I used to be fat. ( I still am, but not nearly to the same extent) Like, Jabba fat. My parents got doctors to say that I had an eating disorder, and maybe I did.
Othering my appetite never helped me. Like “I have an eating disorder” focused my energy on something (my disorder) that didn’t have a mind. It couldn’t get tired, or bored...it didn’t exist. It’s like “fighting” cancer.
But that doesn’t mean that what worked was thinking “I’m a glutton”.
When you say that “I am a dumb person”, it isn’t any closer to a thought you can act on. Kicking yourself when you are down feels good (or, at least, it did for me), it feels like “paying” for the behavior, but that’s just thoughts. It doesn’t actually change stuff.
I was shooting for more “I am a person who had unprotected sex with sketchy folks at place X”. That feels, ‘actionable’, if you will, to me. Like, if the problem is a sex addiction, I dunno what the solution is. If the problem is being a dumb person, I dunno what the solution is. But if the problem is going to a place and doing stuff, there are a bunch of solutions.
1: Carry protection, everywhere. Put it in something that you carry everywhere (wallet, little thingy on your car keys, cell phone case, whatever). If you ever screw someone sketchy, make sure you take it out and use it. If they aren’t willing, maybe that’s a spur to reconsider?
2: Enlist the help of the dudes who run the place. Tell them if they see you there, you will give them ten thousand dollars, or however much money would sting. Ask them, as friends, to kick you out. Tell them you have leprosy. Whatever words you have to say to make sure you aren’t welcome back there.
3: If this place is pay to play, then ration your funds. Each morning put exactly as much cash as you’ll need that day in your wallet, and don’t carry a credit card.
I don’t know if any of these could work for you, but something similar might. A behavior that you don’t want to repeat can always be made more inconvenient. That’s what helped me out with eating too much. I hope that you can do a similar thing to get yourself a different habit.
Dialectical Behavioral Therapyis at least worth looking into.