This was pleasant to read! You seem to be shifting toward some conservative vibes (in the sense of appreciating the nice things about the past, not in the sense of the Republican party).
To me it feels like there’s a bit of tension between doing lots of purely mental exercises, like Hamming questions, and trying to be more “whole”. One idea I have is that you become more “whole” by physically doing stuff while having the right kind of focus. But it’s a bit tricky to explain what it feels like. I’ll try...
For example, when drawing I can easily get into overthinking; but if I draw a quick sketch with my eyes closed, just from visual imagination, it frees me up. Or when playing an instrument, I can easily get into overthinking; but when playing with a metronome, or matching tones with a recording, I get into flow and it feels like improving and relaxing at the same time. Or to take a silly example, I’ve found that running makes me tense, but skipping (not with a rope, just skipping along the street for a bit) is a happy thing and I feel good afterward. So maybe this feeling that you’re looking for isn’t a mind thing, but a mind-body connection thing.
This was pleasant to read! You seem to be shifting toward some conservative vibes (in the sense of appreciating the nice things about the past, not in the sense of the Republican party).
To me it feels like there’s a bit of tension between doing lots of purely mental exercises, like Hamming questions, and trying to be more “whole”. One idea I have is that you become more “whole” by physically doing stuff while having the right kind of focus. But it’s a bit tricky to explain what it feels like. I’ll try...
For example, when drawing I can easily get into overthinking; but if I draw a quick sketch with my eyes closed, just from visual imagination, it frees me up. Or when playing an instrument, I can easily get into overthinking; but when playing with a metronome, or matching tones with a recording, I get into flow and it feels like improving and relaxing at the same time. Or to take a silly example, I’ve found that running makes me tense, but skipping (not with a rope, just skipping along the street for a bit) is a happy thing and I feel good afterward. So maybe this feeling that you’re looking for isn’t a mind thing, but a mind-body connection thing.
Thanks; I appreciate this thought, particularly the examples bit.