I’ve had experience with what I think is the same thing that Eliezer called “lack of status regulation emotions”, and I do think it’s more than “narcissisticly big ego” and more than “unmotivated and unfortunate status blindness”.
It’s not that I couldn’t see the normal status levels. It’s just that I thought they were stupid and irrelevant (hah!) so I just went off my own internal status values. If you could back up your arguments, you had my respect. If you couldn’t and got defensive instead, you didn’t. And I wasn’t gonna pretend to respect someone just because everyone else thought I was out of line. Because.… well, they’re wrong. And I was totally unaware of this at the time because it was just baked into the background of how I saw things.
Good things did come of it, but I definitely stepped on toes, and in those cases it definitely came off like “big ego”.
And in a sense it was, just not in the straightforwardly narcissistic “I’m smarter than you so I don’t have to treat you with respect” way. Just in the “I’m smarter at the ‘not acting smarter than I am’ game, and that is why I don’t have to treat you with respect” way, which, although better, isn’t all that laudable either.
I’ve had experience with what I think is the same thing that Eliezer called “lack of status regulation emotions”, and I do think it’s more than “narcissisticly big ego” and more than “unmotivated and unfortunate status blindness”.
It’s not that I couldn’t see the normal status levels. It’s just that I thought they were stupid and irrelevant (hah!) so I just went off my own internal status values. If you could back up your arguments, you had my respect. If you couldn’t and got defensive instead, you didn’t. And I wasn’t gonna pretend to respect someone just because everyone else thought I was out of line. Because.… well, they’re wrong. And I was totally unaware of this at the time because it was just baked into the background of how I saw things.
Good things did come of it, but I definitely stepped on toes, and in those cases it definitely came off like “big ego”.
And in a sense it was, just not in the straightforwardly narcissistic “I’m smarter than you so I don’t have to treat you with respect” way. Just in the “I’m smarter at the ‘not acting smarter than I am’ game, and that is why I don’t have to treat you with respect” way, which, although better, isn’t all that laudable either.