Would this process, and the chronicling thereof, be at all useful to other members of this site? Because baring myself to the world is an intensely painful experience, both for myself and for others, and I’d rather only do it if it’s going to be useful to people other than me.
If nothing else, it would at least be interesting to read about. If it disturbs you to talk about it online, though, it might not be worth it to publish your results. I’d still recommend writing out the posts anyway even if you keep them to yourself; it should help bring clarity to the process.
Nah; just because something disturbs or terrifies me emotionally, is no reason not to do it—especially when I can imagine the worst-case scenarios and verify that they aren’t as bad as I’m emoting them to be.
I agree in general terms (and I upvoted this post) but I think there are a few special-case exceptions that can be made here. Your end goal is heightened sanity. There is no reason to think that there’s a path to that goal that avoids mental anguish completely, but then again there are almost certainly SOME types of mental anguish that you should avoid. Unpleasant emotions are draining—even if your fear and worry is misplaced it still has a negative impact on your state of mind, and this impact should count when you’re weighing the utility of a course of action. Especially suffering from depression, it is my unprofessional opinion that you should try to mitigate sources of unnecessary negative emotion in your life.
I suffer from depression. I spent a long, long time trying to bootstrap my way out of it with The Power of Rational Thought. It wasn’t disastrous but I don’t think it was an optimal method for me. If I was your brother and you asked my advice I’d tell you to talk to your GP about it, keep a diary of your introspective self-treatment and read up on cognitive-behavioural psychology as well as mindfulness. (That last one struck me as snake oil for a long time but I’m beginning to think that it might actually be fairly helpful medicine that often gets repackaged and sold by snake oil vendors.) Anyway, I’m not your brother and you didn’t ask my advice and I’m not a qualified head doctor and you’ve probably done all of that stuff anyway. Point is, sometimes the fact that it makes you feel bad can be a good reason not to do something. This might not be one of those cases, but you should definitely weigh the impact of your emotions when you make the decision.
There is no reason to think that there’s a path to that goal that avoids mental anguish completely, but then again there are almost certainly SOME types of mental anguish that you should avoid. Unpleasant emotions are draining—even if your fear and worry is misplaced it still has a negative impact on your state of mind, and this impact should count when you’re weighing the utility of a course of action. Especially suffering from depression, it is my unprofessional opinion that you should try to mitigate sources of unnecessary negative emotion in your life.
Perhaps, but here’s part of the problem: I was raised fundamentalist Christian. At an early age, I started showing signs of critical thinking. My thoughts were constrained to the point that, amygdalically at least, performing rationality causes negative emotions. So much so that just about any other kind of negative emotion—say, the fear of being threatened with a mugging, or the shame of being ‘outed’ in a conservative community, or the anger of being blamed for Very Bad Things by the very people who did them—pales in comparison.
They’re literally just little blips on my “bad-stuff-o-meter”, compared to the constant screaming of “all evidence is a lie of Satan and how DARE you open your eyes and ask questions about the world!” that goes on in my head.
Point is, sometimes the fact that it makes you feel bad can be a good reason not to do something. This might not be one of those cases, but you should definitely weigh the impact of your emotions when you make the decision.
If my internal emotional compass had any indication of working at all, even incorrectly, I would do so. So far, though, it seems that it has about a… 0.05 or less correlation with whether something is actually likely to harm me. An air-raid siren is a pretty useless warning system if it’s been stuck on “On” at full-blast since 1981.
Oh wow, that’s what I deserve for offering advice where I don’t have all the facts. Given this new information, I am dramatically re-estimating the nosy utility estimate that I have formed on your behalf. You were right, keeping a public diary does sound like it will be worth it, since trusted community input will hopefully help with your emotional compass problem. Just remember that people on the internet will be prone to making the same sort of stupid errors I made in my last post. We also like to argue all the time, so I guess watch out for that and accommodate for it.
TL;DR, sorry for giving bad advice based on insufficient evidence. Good luck, Ialdabaoth, raise that candle in the dark.
If nothing else, it would at least be interesting to read about. If it disturbs you to talk about it online, though, it might not be worth it to publish your results. I’d still recommend writing out the posts anyway even if you keep them to yourself; it should help bring clarity to the process.
Nah; just because something disturbs or terrifies me emotionally, is no reason not to do it—especially when I can imagine the worst-case scenarios and verify that they aren’t as bad as I’m emoting them to be.
I agree in general terms (and I upvoted this post) but I think there are a few special-case exceptions that can be made here. Your end goal is heightened sanity. There is no reason to think that there’s a path to that goal that avoids mental anguish completely, but then again there are almost certainly SOME types of mental anguish that you should avoid. Unpleasant emotions are draining—even if your fear and worry is misplaced it still has a negative impact on your state of mind, and this impact should count when you’re weighing the utility of a course of action. Especially suffering from depression, it is my unprofessional opinion that you should try to mitigate sources of unnecessary negative emotion in your life.
I suffer from depression. I spent a long, long time trying to bootstrap my way out of it with The Power of Rational Thought. It wasn’t disastrous but I don’t think it was an optimal method for me. If I was your brother and you asked my advice I’d tell you to talk to your GP about it, keep a diary of your introspective self-treatment and read up on cognitive-behavioural psychology as well as mindfulness. (That last one struck me as snake oil for a long time but I’m beginning to think that it might actually be fairly helpful medicine that often gets repackaged and sold by snake oil vendors.) Anyway, I’m not your brother and you didn’t ask my advice and I’m not a qualified head doctor and you’ve probably done all of that stuff anyway. Point is, sometimes the fact that it makes you feel bad can be a good reason not to do something. This might not be one of those cases, but you should definitely weigh the impact of your emotions when you make the decision.
Perhaps, but here’s part of the problem: I was raised fundamentalist Christian. At an early age, I started showing signs of critical thinking. My thoughts were constrained to the point that, amygdalically at least, performing rationality causes negative emotions. So much so that just about any other kind of negative emotion—say, the fear of being threatened with a mugging, or the shame of being ‘outed’ in a conservative community, or the anger of being blamed for Very Bad Things by the very people who did them—pales in comparison.
They’re literally just little blips on my “bad-stuff-o-meter”, compared to the constant screaming of “all evidence is a lie of Satan and how DARE you open your eyes and ask questions about the world!” that goes on in my head.
If my internal emotional compass had any indication of working at all, even incorrectly, I would do so. So far, though, it seems that it has about a… 0.05 or less correlation with whether something is actually likely to harm me. An air-raid siren is a pretty useless warning system if it’s been stuck on “On” at full-blast since 1981.
Oh wow, that’s what I deserve for offering advice where I don’t have all the facts. Given this new information, I am dramatically re-estimating the nosy utility estimate that I have formed on your behalf. You were right, keeping a public diary does sound like it will be worth it, since trusted community input will hopefully help with your emotional compass problem. Just remember that people on the internet will be prone to making the same sort of stupid errors I made in my last post. We also like to argue all the time, so I guess watch out for that and accommodate for it.
TL;DR, sorry for giving bad advice based on insufficient evidence. Good luck, Ialdabaoth, raise that candle in the dark.
Tentative advice: Have you looked into accounts from people who’ve recovered from emotionally abusive Christian upbringings?