I can see myself in this post and I think you are right that this is an emotional problem! Which in part means I don’t believe you’ll resolve the contempt by trying to think your way through it.
I think instead it would be cool to have a discussion where you feel the contempt and the shame you have around it, as well as giving those emotions space without denying them.
There are questions I would be interested in understanding, such as, in what ways do you feel judged for having this contempt? Do you feel it’s unfair? What other emotions exist around this problem? Is there anger or sadness that others in less wrong (i.e. your own community) aren’t trying to understand the contempt that you are feeling in the way you would hope?
I don’t think your writing is unclear :)
I can see myself in this post and I think you are right that this is an emotional problem! Which in part means I don’t believe you’ll resolve the contempt by trying to think your way through it.
I think instead it would be cool to have a discussion where you feel the contempt and the shame you have around it, as well as giving those emotions space without denying them.
There are questions I would be interested in understanding, such as, in what ways do you feel judged for having this contempt? Do you feel it’s unfair? What other emotions exist around this problem? Is there anger or sadness that others in less wrong (i.e. your own community) aren’t trying to understand the contempt that you are feeling in the way you would hope?