I wouldn’t really consider myself a p-zombie, I think, since if I lack something that other humans lack it is likely a strong feeling that I am conscious, which isn’t necessarily related to any actual thing that people might refer to by “consciousness”
I also find your writing and implied experience very strange. I remember the “this is me” feeling from quite a young age and definitely feeling it was important, something I felt without having it explained to me first, and a feeling that came first, before words to express it. In other words the origin of it wasn’t me being expected to talk about my feelings, but something that bubbled up from myself. However I definitely wouldn’t consider you a p-zombie as I believe animals with much less introspection than you have qualia, feel real pain etc and it is unethical to ignore that. Out of curiosity how big is your ego? I mean this in a curious, non-threatening way, as in do you consider yourself to be important, both good or bad? Do you care about continuing to exist as much as others around you do? Do assaults on your self, such as social roastings actually hurt and cause you to keep going over them in your head so as to avoid in the future? It may be simply that there is much less recursive “think about yourself” going on naturally in your brain. Like if you must think about nothing for say 10 mins, do your thoughts come back to yourself?
I consider myself to be fairly important to myself, I think about myself fairly often and am very introspective and reflective, I have strong preferences over what doesnand doesn’t happen to me.
I wouldn’t really consider myself a p-zombie, I think, since if I lack something that other humans lack it is likely a strong feeling that I am conscious, which isn’t necessarily related to any actual thing that people might refer to by “consciousness”
I also find your writing and implied experience very strange. I remember the “this is me” feeling from quite a young age and definitely feeling it was important, something I felt without having it explained to me first, and a feeling that came first, before words to express it. In other words the origin of it wasn’t me being expected to talk about my feelings, but something that bubbled up from myself. However I definitely wouldn’t consider you a p-zombie as I believe animals with much less introspection than you have qualia, feel real pain etc and it is unethical to ignore that.
Out of curiosity how big is your ego? I mean this in a curious, non-threatening way, as in do you consider yourself to be important, both good or bad? Do you care about continuing to exist as much as others around you do? Do assaults on your self, such as social roastings actually hurt and cause you to keep going over them in your head so as to avoid in the future?
It may be simply that there is much less recursive “think about yourself” going on naturally in your brain. Like if you must think about nothing for say 10 mins, do your thoughts come back to yourself?
I consider myself to be fairly important to myself, I think about myself fairly often and am very introspective and reflective, I have strong preferences over what doesnand doesn’t happen to me.
OK interesting. Not sure what is going on!