Even though a lot of these things have never happened to me, I related to this post in a very painful way.
I have a deep-seated fear of standing out in a negative way. And it’s not an inborn, instinctive fear; it’s a fear born of painful experience. I always seem to be the odd one out. I always seem to be the only one who didn’t understand something and embarrassed myself as a result. I always seem to be the only one who wants to do something in the only way that’s ever seemed normal for me. And yes, I am often that person who asks a question no one’s ever asked, or does a thing no one’s ever done, in a way that just makes things awkward and embarrassing rather than interesting or exciting. I always end up being memorable in a bad way.
(I’ve also once or twice been accused of being a troll, for asking a completely sincere question that was apparently considered so stupid that it couldn’t possibly be sincere. That really hurts. Because they’re not only saying I don’t exist, they’re also saying that the only way I could exist is if I were incredibly, unbelievably stupid.)
I’m sorry you keep getting cut in the same place over and over.
Even though a lot of these things have never happened to me, I related to this post in a very painful way.
I have a deep-seated fear of standing out in a negative way. And it’s not an inborn, instinctive fear; it’s a fear born of painful experience. I always seem to be the odd one out. I always seem to be the only one who didn’t understand something and embarrassed myself as a result. I always seem to be the only one who wants to do something in the only way that’s ever seemed normal for me. And yes, I am often that person who asks a question no one’s ever asked, or does a thing no one’s ever done, in a way that just makes things awkward and embarrassing rather than interesting or exciting. I always end up being memorable in a bad way.
(I’ve also once or twice been accused of being a troll, for asking a completely sincere question that was apparently considered so stupid that it couldn’t possibly be sincere. That really hurts. Because they’re not only saying I don’t exist, they’re also saying that the only way I could exist is if I were incredibly, unbelievably stupid.)
I’m sorry you keep getting cut in the same place over and over.