I already suspected that negative motivation is bad… And that pain is not a good long-term motivator!
“Therefore attempts to overcome procrastination or akrasia via willpower expenditure are fundamentally misguided. We should instead be trying to remove whatever negative motivation it is that holds us back,”
Problem is there is no positive motivation for anything for me! I know terrible things to which there is no counter! Like roko, even if that was proven false, dunno currently as you can’t read about it!!! But I have 3 other theories that are as bad! Of which no one has a counter except 1!!! And there are probably more!
https://iep.utm.edu/boredom/#H4 I literally suffer from all reasons one can be bored of described here! It is not a coincidence! I tried life hack my brain and imagination and role-playing, I even tried to disable my emotions and I managed it somehow in short time: but I got pain in stomach and started shaking and felt so terribly, that I forego this idea! Because I Am very sensitive & emotional person and to my environment and I have overexcitabilities, I never felt so empty, so it worked! Nothing had any effect whatsoever, except small short-term effect, which I know I Am lying myself still… As I Am too real, I see how it is, so I will never believe fake stories people tell themselves for good night sleep. This could never work on me!!!
I can’t ultimately know the truth, but then everything is random. Then it is not any better, as everything is guessing and coinflipp...
So I Am completely done no matter what, literally suffering for rest of the life...
I already suspected that negative motivation is bad… And that pain is not a good long-term motivator!
“Therefore attempts to overcome procrastination or akrasia via willpower expenditure are fundamentally misguided. We should instead be trying to remove whatever negative motivation it is that holds us back,”
Problem is there is no positive motivation for anything for me! I know terrible things to which there is no counter! Like roko, even if that was proven false, dunno currently as you can’t read about it!!! But I have 3 other theories that are as bad! Of which no one has a counter except 1!!! And there are probably more!
Even if these 4 weren’t true, or any else… I suffer from profound existential boredom! Nothing entertains me more than watching a wall literally! As I see things closer to how they truly are and I see ultimate existence for what it is! https://www.researchgate.net/publication/301683980_Existential_Boredom_Re-examined_Boredom_as_Authenticity_and_Life-Affirmation
https://iep.utm.edu/boredom/#H4 I literally suffer from all reasons one can be bored of described here! It is not a coincidence! I tried life hack my brain and imagination and role-playing, I even tried to disable my emotions and I managed it somehow in short time: but I got pain in stomach and started shaking and felt so terribly, that I forego this idea! Because I Am very sensitive & emotional person and to my environment and I have overexcitabilities, I never felt so empty, so it worked! Nothing had any effect whatsoever, except small short-term effect, which I know I Am lying myself still… As I Am too real, I see how it is, so I will never believe fake stories people tell themselves for good night sleep. This could never work on me!!!
I can’t ultimately know the truth, but then everything is random. Then it is not any better, as everything is guessing and coinflipp...
So I Am completely done no matter what, literally suffering for rest of the life...