but feeling that way doesn’t actually help me not be incompetent at life.
In fact, it’s making you more incompetent. Knock it off.
You’re engaging in the classic “How do I hate me? Let me count the ways.” What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I do this? I recall taking something of a sadistic glee in my own misfortunes and failings. I used to call it “self sadism”. And those were the good days. On the worst days, I felt powerless and hopeless. “Incompetent at life”. This is a maladaptive use of attention.
It’s neither helpful nor a good time. It generates depression. You’re using your mind and attention in ways that hurt you. Do something else.
Wouldn’t it be more fun to work and take your mind off things, and then have a little more coin in your pocket? You can always come back to making yourself miserable tomorrow. Or the next day.
Why don’t you just see if you like that kind of day better?
The following may or may not appeal to you, but when I was in a similar state, I found it very appropriate and moving. See “Sucker Punch”.
In fact, it’s making you more incompetent. Knock it off.
You’re engaging in the classic “How do I hate me? Let me count the ways.” What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I do this? I recall taking something of a sadistic glee in my own misfortunes and failings. I used to call it “self sadism”. And those were the good days. On the worst days, I felt powerless and hopeless. “Incompetent at life”. This is a maladaptive use of attention.
It’s neither helpful nor a good time. It generates depression. You’re using your mind and attention in ways that hurt you. Do something else.
Wouldn’t it be more fun to work and take your mind off things, and then have a little more coin in your pocket? You can always come back to making yourself miserable tomorrow. Or the next day.
Why don’t you just see if you like that kind of day better?
The following may or may not appeal to you, but when I was in a similar state, I found it very appropriate and moving. See “Sucker Punch”.