Peter Watts is going to love that story. He has zombie soldiers in his work in progress novel.
I kind of tend to enter that sort of calm zombie state at times but its not very easy. The stuff that is interfering is all the other people’s god damn worries and neuroses that sort of get inside of you like a disease as you have to be modelling other people (to interact with them) and you have your brain learn all sorts of counter productive patterns that other people do, they frigging invent those patterns in their idleness. I utterly hate how other people’s invented neuroses can run in the head (in the internal monologue). (that sort of stuff makes me feel angry… you interact a lot with person that’s prone to self handicapping, then you see yourself being self handicapped, easy to see why, your brain been modelling that behaviour on the same brain that you use for everything else)
edit: not that I don’t self handicap myself on my own though. But i don’t do that on stuff i normally do.
Peter Watts is going to love that story. He has zombie soldiers in his work in progress novel.
I kind of tend to enter that sort of calm zombie state at times but its not very easy. The stuff that is interfering is all the other people’s god damn worries and neuroses that sort of get inside of you like a disease as you have to be modelling other people (to interact with them) and you have your brain learn all sorts of counter productive patterns that other people do, they frigging invent those patterns in their idleness. I utterly hate how other people’s invented neuroses can run in the head (in the internal monologue). (that sort of stuff makes me feel angry… you interact a lot with person that’s prone to self handicapping, then you see yourself being self handicapped, easy to see why, your brain been modelling that behaviour on the same brain that you use for everything else)
edit: not that I don’t self handicap myself on my own though. But i don’t do that on stuff i normally do.