I simply don’t know. I ask myself this question everytime I notice someone seems depressed and in want to do something meaningful. It just seems to arrive. In the case of personal projects, sometimes I simply get an idea, get excited about it and start working on it immediately. As the project takes shape I keep on getting excited wanting to improve it, maybe in search of a certain goal like feedback and recognition. I once worked on an editor for months, polished it a lot, for some reason I lost the code to it. After a while when remembering how much I liked that project I started feeling terrible, I still had an older version of the code and part of me wanted to restore it. I debated myself for days, argued with ideas of how it just wasn’t worth it, but somehow I found the willpower to do it. Maybe it’s like a rational decision, you decide it’s the best way to go and do it. So it’s not entirely controllable as you can’t genuinely force your convictions and especially not all the outside stimuli that shape your thoughts.
I simply don’t know. I ask myself this question everytime I notice someone seems depressed and in want to do something meaningful. It just seems to arrive. In the case of personal projects, sometimes I simply get an idea, get excited about it and start working on it immediately. As the project takes shape I keep on getting excited wanting to improve it, maybe in search of a certain goal like feedback and recognition. I once worked on an editor for months, polished it a lot, for some reason I lost the code to it. After a while when remembering how much I liked that project I started feeling terrible, I still had an older version of the code and part of me wanted to restore it. I debated myself for days, argued with ideas of how it just wasn’t worth it, but somehow I found the willpower to do it. Maybe it’s like a rational decision, you decide it’s the best way to go and do it. So it’s not entirely controllable as you can’t genuinely force your convictions and especially not all the outside stimuli that shape your thoughts.