For me the actual experience of resolving the Great Matter felt like dying. It’s not a coincidence that some folks call it Dying the Great Death. That part was not too dissimilar from the ego death that can be experienced with various drugs, though with the difference that it feels less like being temporarily blown apart and more like a permanent dying of something.
But after that I spent several months with easy access to a feeling of bliss. The bliss eventually gave way to tranquility and later equanimity. As I often describe it, every moment of every day is a 9⁄10 (and only not a 10⁄10 because I know I give up some feeling good to be actively living in the world), even when I’m quite sad or upset or anxious or anything else. Relatively speaking, though, this means that most of the time things are “just fine” or “okay” because there’s not the constant fluctuation between suffering and release.
I do want to caveat this answer, though, by saying that the process to get here involved the worst suffering of my life. Long weeks of hopeless despair, years of confusion and dissatisfaction. I’m only happy now because I went through all that, and I only went through it all because I had no choice—I couldn’t find a way to be happy without going through it.
Congratulations.
I have heard that it is very good, is that true?
Yes.
For me the actual experience of resolving the Great Matter felt like dying. It’s not a coincidence that some folks call it Dying the Great Death. That part was not too dissimilar from the ego death that can be experienced with various drugs, though with the difference that it feels less like being temporarily blown apart and more like a permanent dying of something.
But after that I spent several months with easy access to a feeling of bliss. The bliss eventually gave way to tranquility and later equanimity. As I often describe it, every moment of every day is a 9⁄10 (and only not a 10⁄10 because I know I give up some feeling good to be actively living in the world), even when I’m quite sad or upset or anxious or anything else. Relatively speaking, though, this means that most of the time things are “just fine” or “okay” because there’s not the constant fluctuation between suffering and release.
I do want to caveat this answer, though, by saying that the process to get here involved the worst suffering of my life. Long weeks of hopeless despair, years of confusion and dissatisfaction. I’m only happy now because I went through all that, and I only went through it all because I had no choice—I couldn’t find a way to be happy without going through it.