I don’t think that more tests are necessary. You’ve had two doctors look, and you have had your chest imaged. The chance that it is cancer given two strong pieces of evidence against, given that your baseline risk is very low, is extremely low.
You’re privileging your hypothesis, and are only looking to conform rather than looking to disprove your hypothesis.
The problem isn’t your beliefs though. It sounds like you logically understand that you are very likely fine, but your aliefs are misaligned. Those are harder to change. More evidence isn’t going to do it though.
Do you have a psychiatrist or a therapist? That’s the doctor that I’d turn to in your situation.
Depending on your level of probing, is it possible that you’ve injured yourself causing some scar tissue in the muscle, with possible inflammation? If you probe the location often, have you considered covering it with some rigid material to block unthinking probing?
For anxiety like this, cannabis can be an option. It may help with the pain that you’re experiencing too.
You’ve had two doctors look, and you have had your chest imaged.
To give a bit more context, whenever I had the GPs “touch” the parts that I feel were alarming, they never managed to “feel it” or “grab it” the way I do. So I don’t feel like I gave them enough evidence. And for the “chest being imaged”, it was about one year ago (things might have changed since then), and the doctor did it quickly looking at my heart, not really looking precisely at the part that I’m concerned about.
(I know that I sound a bit like “the medical evidence is wrong, they didn’t find anything because they weren’t doing it right, I know what I truly have”, but that’s how I honestly feel).
your aliefs are misaligned. Those are harder to change. More evidence isn’t going to do it though.
I didn’t know about the concept of alief, that’s really cool, thanks!
Do you have a psychiatrist or a therapist?
Not now, definitely needed. I feel like someone specialized in illness anxiety would help more with the anxiety than a psychiatrist, but the psychiatrist would know what’s psychosomatic and what’s not.
possible that you’ve injured yourself causing some scar tissue in the muscle, with possible inflammation
I’m unsure how much you could injure yourself from just probing daily (with different levels of intensity) for like 6 months. That’s definitely something I considered. When I probe my right chest, it’s painful for like 10-20m, but I almost never do it. When I saw the first GP, he told me the region I was pointing at was near a tendon in the “pectoralis major”.
If you probe the location often, have you considered covering it with some rigid material to block unthinking probing?
Interesting. I haven’t reached the point where I do it every hour. For now, it’s maybe 10m in bed, so not too constraining. I also have enough self-control to not do it during the day (even more now that I wrote this post).
For anxiety like this, cannabis can be an option.
Word. I’m the kind of person to develop new anxieties with cannabis though.