When I was doing 6 months of TAPs one of the big things I noticed was that when I disengaged from a TAP (or the TAP was bubbling up to the top layer of conscious awareness, but was dismissed before getting to the top, but still while there was some awareness on it) there was a feeling of, “Oh, I’m not actually convinced of the purpose and mission of this TAP right now”. Once or twice I gained insight from exploring that lack of conviction, and found a hole in the logic of my TAP.
I notice a similar experience in meditation. On the mornings when I feel the most disengaged, and returning to the breath is the most “chore like”, I notice that there’s some way in which I’m no longer convinced that returning to the breath is “the best use of my time”.
When I was doing 6 months of TAPs one of the big things I noticed was that when I disengaged from a TAP (or the TAP was bubbling up to the top layer of conscious awareness, but was dismissed before getting to the top, but still while there was some awareness on it) there was a feeling of, “Oh, I’m not actually convinced of the purpose and mission of this TAP right now”. Once or twice I gained insight from exploring that lack of conviction, and found a hole in the logic of my TAP.
I notice a similar experience in meditation. On the mornings when I feel the most disengaged, and returning to the breath is the most “chore like”, I notice that there’s some way in which I’m no longer convinced that returning to the breath is “the best use of my time”.