In the interest of sharing anecdotes… I used to have a similar problem. I had a strong desire to read books in their entirety but found that large portions were a waste of my time or were not relevant to what I was studying. For most of my life if you’d asked me to recommend a book, I wouldn’t have been able to do so without a list of caveats (“but I only recommend part 1 and the conclusion” or “this is a great book as long as you ignore x, y and z”). Then I went through a period of intellectual development where I renounced a great many of my earlier beliefs. Since then I’ve found many authors whose work I want to read in full and, conversely, when I read outside these authors I have an easier time skimming because I know exactly what I’m looking for. To me this suggests that my earlier problems were due to being wrong about big, important things.
In the interest of sharing anecdotes… I used to have a similar problem. I had a strong desire to read books in their entirety but found that large portions were a waste of my time or were not relevant to what I was studying. For most of my life if you’d asked me to recommend a book, I wouldn’t have been able to do so without a list of caveats (“but I only recommend part 1 and the conclusion” or “this is a great book as long as you ignore x, y and z”). Then I went through a period of intellectual development where I renounced a great many of my earlier beliefs. Since then I’ve found many authors whose work I want to read in full and, conversely, when I read outside these authors I have an easier time skimming because I know exactly what I’m looking for. To me this suggests that my earlier problems were due to being wrong about big, important things.