It occurs to me that I also neglected to include participating on Lesswrong in my list. It’s a slightly different phenomenon, but here the local sample is so skewed in terms of intelligence that even those of us with IQs 2 or 3 standard deviations above the mean can be quietly nursing the humiliating thought that maybe we are idiots after all.
That is especially so for those of us who excel more in verbal intelligence than in math and programming capabilities.
When I was younger, for reasons that I don’t understand well now, I really didn’t want to be defined by “intelligence.” People often told me that I was smart, and that because I was smart, I ought to do x, y, z (be a biologist, be a physicist, whatever, and if it was a teacher, it was usually the subject they taught.) Which prompted me not to want to do x, y, z even though I found pretty much all subjects fascinating.
So I went into nursing, where a lot of the material (practical skills and empathy-based skills) involves stuff I’m not naturally good at...and all of the sudden intelligence is something I want to prove, and the fact that most people on LW are smarter than I am bothers me way more than it should.
I have found that LessWrong has the opposite effect on me. While I think that I am less rational and less intelligent than the average person here (or perhaps the availability-weighted average?), my main cognitive response has been an increase in self-esteem.
Strangely, in college, where there was also an abundance of people smarter than me, I and my response was a general feeling of inferiority.
I would hypothesize (~40% confidence) that the source of this difference is a sense of competing with my college classmates for jobs vs. aspiring to gain the abilities that others here have.
It occurs to me that I also neglected to include participating on Lesswrong in my list. It’s a slightly different phenomenon, but here the local sample is so skewed in terms of intelligence that even those of us with IQs 2 or 3 standard deviations above the mean can be quietly nursing the humiliating thought that maybe we are idiots after all.
That is especially so for those of us who excel more in verbal intelligence than in math and programming capabilities.
So I’m not the only one who’s found that!
When I was younger, for reasons that I don’t understand well now, I really didn’t want to be defined by “intelligence.” People often told me that I was smart, and that because I was smart, I ought to do x, y, z (be a biologist, be a physicist, whatever, and if it was a teacher, it was usually the subject they taught.) Which prompted me not to want to do x, y, z even though I found pretty much all subjects fascinating.
So I went into nursing, where a lot of the material (practical skills and empathy-based skills) involves stuff I’m not naturally good at...and all of the sudden intelligence is something I want to prove, and the fact that most people on LW are smarter than I am bothers me way more than it should.
I have found that LessWrong has the opposite effect on me. While I think that I am less rational and less intelligent than the average person here (or perhaps the availability-weighted average?), my main cognitive response has been an increase in self-esteem.
Strangely, in college, where there was also an abundance of people smarter than me, I and my response was a general feeling of inferiority.
I would hypothesize (~40% confidence) that the source of this difference is a sense of competing with my college classmates for jobs vs. aspiring to gain the abilities that others here have.