I had a related (and admittedly somewhat strange) experience to this. I had a dream in which I was given a koan and told to use it to seek enlightenment. When I woke up I wrote down the koan and decided to meditate on it. I gained some wisdom from it, but I also noticed that I was starting to feel empty. Not a peaceful one-ness kind of empty- just empty empty. I realized that if experienced anything like ego death in my present state, it would go very, very badly. It seems counterintuitive, but knew I had to find myself before I continued on the path- to find myself before I lost myself, if that makes any sense. It’s as if in order to reach transcendence, there had to be something worth transcending.
I generally don’t believe that dreams or omens come from a place with some special connection to the truth, but if following a clue from a mysterious source is cheap, I generally follow it. If one doesn’t accept prompts to go on an adventure, one cannot reasonably claim disappointment if life has too few adventures.
There was no special connection to the truth in this koan. It was actually a little lame- just my brain pattern-matching. But pattern matching can do some odd things things. I won’t reach enlightenment with this koan- I’ve already followed it as far as it will go. It was “where is your voice located.” It’s a very “if a tree falls in the forest” type of koan, but I learned just a little from following it in its expected loop.
I had a related (and admittedly somewhat strange) experience to this. I had a dream in which I was given a koan and told to use it to seek enlightenment. When I woke up I wrote down the koan and decided to meditate on it. I gained some wisdom from it, but I also noticed that I was starting to feel empty. Not a peaceful one-ness kind of empty- just empty empty. I realized that if experienced anything like ego death in my present state, it would go very, very badly. It seems counterintuitive, but knew I had to find myself before I continued on the path- to find myself before I lost myself, if that makes any sense. It’s as if in order to reach transcendence, there had to be something worth transcending.
Would you be willing to share the koan?
I generally don’t believe that dreams or omens come from a place with some special connection to the truth, but if following a clue from a mysterious source is cheap, I generally follow it. If one doesn’t accept prompts to go on an adventure, one cannot reasonably claim disappointment if life has too few adventures.
There was no special connection to the truth in this koan. It was actually a little lame- just my brain pattern-matching. But pattern matching can do some odd things things. I won’t reach enlightenment with this koan- I’ve already followed it as far as it will go. It was “where is your voice located.” It’s a very “if a tree falls in the forest” type of koan, but I learned just a little from following it in its expected loop.