I am a non-native English speaker. I chose not to use academic or idiomatic “polishing,” as standard philosophical vocabulary carries too much linguistic contamination. I used AI tools only as a dictionary, mapping my original Chinese concepts into the simplest possible English words.
My reasoning does not rely on mathematics, but on geometric intuition. Please treat “Pointing” and “Coordinate” as primitive variables within a logical system.
Introduction: The Only Certain Event
I can only ensure the Now. I cannot know whether the “Me” of the past or the future is truly me. The Self is not a continuous stream of memory or consciousness—it is a momentary event where Feeling points to and arrives at a unique Coordinate in this instant. Continuity is a narrative created afterward by the mind—an unreliable illusion. This calls into question any promise of “Eternal Life” or “Resurrection” through memory copying or mind-uploading.
I. The Clone Scenario – The Unreliability of Continuity
Suppose someone tells me I am a clone—that an “Original” once existed, and I now carry his body, memories, and personality. To others, I appear to be him; to myself, I feel continuous. But if the Original is gone, his capacity to feel is gone as well. His pattern may persist, but his consciousness does not. My own experience is simply running inside that simulated memory. The form of consciousness can be copied into any container—it can make one believe oneself to be another, or to be continuous when one is not. Thus, what defines “me” is not a memory pattern that can be replicated, but the single, unshareable point of Feeling—the event of experience itself.I do not need to prove that “the past does not exist,” for in defining the actuality of this moment, the past is an unnecessary parameter. I can only ensure this collision of awareness, now.
II. Interruption – Existence Without Continuity
If I fall into a coma or anesthesia, does the Self vanish? At that moment, yes—it does. Continuity belongs to the narrative layer, but existence belongs to direct experience. When feeling happens, I exist. When feeling ceases, I do not. Even the “Me” of a second ago might be a fragment of false memory; I cannot experience that version of myself. I exist only when the light of awareness is on. I am neither the current nor the bulb—I am the moment of illumination. The potential to be lit may remain even when the lamp is dark, but the Self exists only in the instant of light.
III. What the Self Really Is
Consciousness and thought are merely Scripts—simulatable, corruptible, and transferable. If my thinking pattern could be reproduced in another body or in a computer, that consciousness would believe it was me. That is not illusion from its own side; it is simply another mode of self-recognition. The essence of Self lies in the capability of Feeling that points to a single Coordinate. This act of pointing is unique. The Coordinate that receives the feeling is me. If that Coordinate cannot feel, or if the pointing does not land on it, existence collapses. Memory and thought occur on the surface; they may reflect the Self but never constitute it.
The Event Model:
[Feeling]———(Pointing)———>[Coordinate]
The Self is not the Feeling itself, nor the Consciousness, but the event of the Feeling arriving at that Coordinate.
IV. Resurrection and Immortality – Technical Misunderstandings
Resurrection is not the restoration of memory or the simulation of body and thought.
It would require the return of the same Pointing to the same Coordinate.
If the Feeling cannot point back to that original location, then “you” are not reborn.
Death is the disappearance of Feeling and its target.
Thus, mind-uploading or cloning are just acts of restarting new Coordinates with similar scripts—new points of light in different rooms, irrelevant to the lamp that went dark.The desire for immortality is the wish for the same Pointing to reappear. Yet no technology has ever demonstrated how such a return could occur. What people call digital rebirth or consciousness transfer is simply a poetic suicide disguised as preservation—a new instance of awareness believing it continues a story that has already ended.
V. The Echo of Unreal Narratives
The external world—and its language—is an unreliable construct. The word “I” is its greatest contamination.
We treat “I” as a stable subject of thought, but that “I” is already the trap.
“I think, therefore I am” presupposes an “I” before the act of thinking, but in fact, existence precedes narrative. Feeling occurs before grammar.
To exist does not require thought—it is an event already underway.I am not the thought, not the feeling, not the continuity.
I am the event of Feeling pointing to and arriving at this Coordinate.
This is the only thing that cannot be doubted.
PS: On Method
I have used AI previously to run “extreme stress tests” on this reasoning—trying to find contradictions in its logical structure.
This version is rewritten purely from my own reflection. The wording is imperfect, yet the logic stands.
AI could question the surface, but none could break the core model.
I share this not as doctrine, but as an invitation for observation and verification.
# The Pointing and the Coordinate: A Discrete Observation of Self
Introduction: The Only Certain Event
I can only ensure the Now.
I cannot know whether the “Me” of the past or the future is truly me.
The Self is not a continuous stream of memory or consciousness—it is a momentary event where Feeling points to and arrives at a unique Coordinate in this instant.
Continuity is a narrative created afterward by the mind—an unreliable illusion. This calls into question any promise of “Eternal Life” or “Resurrection” through memory copying or mind-uploading.
I. The Clone Scenario – The Unreliability of Continuity
Suppose someone tells me I am a clone—that an “Original” once existed, and I now carry his body, memories, and personality.
To others, I appear to be him; to myself, I feel continuous.
But if the Original is gone, his capacity to feel is gone as well. His pattern may persist, but his consciousness does not.
My own experience is simply running inside that simulated memory. The form of consciousness can be copied into any container—it can make one believe oneself to be another, or to be continuous when one is not.
Thus, what defines “me” is not a memory pattern that can be replicated, but the single, unshareable point of Feeling—the event of experience itself.I do not need to prove that “the past does not exist,” for in defining the actuality of this moment, the past is an unnecessary parameter. I can only ensure this collision of awareness, now.
II. Interruption – Existence Without Continuity
If I fall into a coma or anesthesia, does the Self vanish?
At that moment, yes—it does.
Continuity belongs to the narrative layer, but existence belongs to direct experience.
When feeling happens, I exist. When feeling ceases, I do not.
Even the “Me” of a second ago might be a fragment of false memory; I cannot experience that version of myself.
I exist only when the light of awareness is on.
I am neither the current nor the bulb—I am the moment of illumination. The potential to be lit may remain even when the lamp is dark, but the Self exists only in the instant of light.
III. What the Self Really Is
Consciousness and thought are merely Scripts—simulatable, corruptible, and transferable.
If my thinking pattern could be reproduced in another body or in a computer, that consciousness would believe it was me. That is not illusion from its own side; it is simply another mode of self-recognition.
The essence of Self lies in the capability of Feeling that points to a single Coordinate. This act of pointing is unique. The Coordinate that receives the feeling is me.
If that Coordinate cannot feel, or if the pointing does not land on it, existence collapses.
Memory and thought occur on the surface; they may reflect the Self but never constitute it.
The Event Model:
[Feeling]———(Pointing)———>[Coordinate]
The Self is not the Feeling itself, nor the Consciousness, but the event of the Feeling arriving at that Coordinate.
IV. Resurrection and Immortality – Technical Misunderstandings
Resurrection is not the restoration of memory or the simulation of body and thought.
It would require the return of the same Pointing to the same Coordinate.
If the Feeling cannot point back to that original location, then “you” are not reborn.
Death is the disappearance of Feeling and its target.
Thus, mind-uploading or cloning are just acts of restarting new Coordinates with similar scripts—new points of light in different rooms, irrelevant to the lamp that went dark.The desire for immortality is the wish for the same Pointing to reappear. Yet no technology has ever demonstrated how such a return could occur. What people call digital rebirth or consciousness transfer is simply a poetic suicide disguised as preservation—a new instance of awareness believing it continues a story that has already ended.
V. The Echo of Unreal Narratives
The external world—and its language—is an unreliable construct. The word “I” is its greatest contamination.
We treat “I” as a stable subject of thought, but that “I” is already the trap.
“I think, therefore I am” presupposes an “I” before the act of thinking, but in fact, existence precedes narrative. Feeling occurs before grammar.
To exist does not require thought—it is an event already underway.I am not the thought, not the feeling, not the continuity.
I am the event of Feeling pointing to and arriving at this Coordinate.
This is the only thing that cannot be doubted.
PS: On Method
I have used AI previously to run “extreme stress tests” on this reasoning—trying to find contradictions in its logical structure.
This version is rewritten purely from my own reflection. The wording is imperfect, yet the logic stands.
AI could question the surface, but none could break the core model.
I share this not as doctrine, but as an invitation for observation and verification.