It sounds like the experiment was very successful! You identified something about yourself you wanted to improve, you knew the limits of speculation without experience, you jumped in despite considerable emotional peril (it could so easily have gone badly), and it sounds like you learned a lot about who you are, how you operate, and how flexible your limits are.
It sounds like the experiment was very successful! You identified something about yourself you wanted to improve, you knew the limits of speculation without experience, you jumped in despite considerable emotional peril (it could so easily have gone badly), and it sounds like you learned a lot about who you are, how you operate, and how flexible your limits are.
You say “tsuyoku naritai”; I say “ganbatte!”