You’re at least not the only one, though in my case it appears to just be my natural state rather than being related to anything I learned.
(My first ‘wait, what?’ moment relating to meditation was when I was a teenager, newly out of being Christian, just starting to look into new age stuff, not even aware of rationality as a potential thing to be pursued. I got a book on meditation and concluded that I must be misunderstanding it because all the stuff it talked about about involuntarily thinking about things and having to put a lot of effort into quieting those thoughts was so foreign to my actual experience.)
You’re at least not the only one, though in my case it appears to just be my natural state rather than being related to anything I learned.
(My first ‘wait, what?’ moment relating to meditation was when I was a teenager, newly out of being Christian, just starting to look into new age stuff, not even aware of rationality as a potential thing to be pursued. I got a book on meditation and concluded that I must be misunderstanding it because all the stuff it talked about about involuntarily thinking about things and having to put a lot of effort into quieting those thoughts was so foreign to my actual experience.)
That actually helps a bit, lowering the probability I’m simply delusional. Thanks.