These kinds of social difficulties seem like major worries when I ponder the kinds of self improvement that you are displaying. If I infer that several years of vipassana meditation could help to develop similar levels of self control, I would want to know before beginning that I wasn’t setting myself up for some kind of social pariah status from which I may not be able to retreat.
If you are worried that improving your mental functioning could impose costs you do not want to pay, should you not also at least be asking yourself whether your present mental functioning is already too far advanced beyond optimum, and whether you should be taking some equivalent of stupid pills to dumb yourself down to such optimal level? How likely is it that you just happen to right now be at the optimal point without ever having tried to optimise for it?
ETA: Personally, I’m with Stefan King on this. More clarity and damn the consequences.
If you are worried that improving your mental functioning could impose costs you do not want to pay, should you not also at least be asking yourself whether your present mental functioning is already too far advanced beyond optimum, and whether you should be taking some equivalent of stupid pills to dumb yourself down to such optimal level? How likely is it that you just happen to right now be at the optimal point without ever having tried to optimise for it?
ETA: Personally, I’m with Stefan King on this. More clarity and damn the consequences.