Hi—I’m new here—some questions

Hello everyone,

I’m new here, although I’ve read Less Wrong and Overcoming Bias on and off for the last few years. Anyways, I’m InquilineKea (or Simfish), and I have a website at http://​​simfishthoughts.wordpress.com/​​. I think about everything, so I feel that this might be the perfect community for me. I do have some questions though—are we allowed to post anything in this part of the site? (like, could we treat this part like another forum, albeit an intellectually mature forum?) Or do we have to keep things formal? I tend to post a high number of threads, but there don’t seem to be many threads here. Are there any terms of service/​​rules? Or are things just governed by upvotes/​​downvotes? (much like reddit)

Anyways, I’m an astronomy/​physics/​math major at the University of Washington (I got in through an early entrance program) and I’m planning on applying to astrophysics grad school fairly soon. However, I’m also intensely interested in complex adaptive systems and data mining, especially as they relate to the social sciences. I’m especially interested in Consilience and in trying to find trends behind every academic field (in fact, I do want to get to a graduate level of education in every natural and social science there is). I’m demographics junkie who literally pours over all the charts and tables of every demographic statistic I can find, although it sometimes ends up hurting my grades. My favorite blogs are Gene Expression, FuturePundit/​ParaPundit, and Overcoming Bias. Which I’m sure a lot of people here read.

I always think in terms of maximizing “utility” and maximizing “efficiency”. So this leads me to do many untraditional things. For one thing, I have attention deficit disorder, so I realize that I frequently have to take untraditional approaches. The Internet has always been a savior for me because I can always stop and continue later when I feel like I’m about to zone out (in fact, those with ADD have a highly inconsistent learning rate). I also have an Asperger’s Syndrome diagnosis, although I’ve recently tried to stop using it as an excuse for my behavior (in fact, I now only fit the bare minimum of “Aspie” criteria on the DSM IV, but I still think that it strongly influences my interests and behavior). I also consistently think of what’s most rational—which means that I have to respect the desires that evolution has given me. Sometimes, people think that maximizing “utility” means maximizing “self-interest”, but the amazing thing is that evolution has made people happier whenever they help others (for whatever reason), since “happiness” tends to asymptote with increased wealth/​self-gratification/​etc. So as a result, people are actually happiest when they’re socially interconnected. Although I sometimes bemoan this fact since I often feel that people don’t understand me (I’m trying to move beyond my neuroticism/​anger stemming from a half-decade of social rejection, but it still affects me now). I also practice calorie restriction + vegetarianism, not just to maximize my chances of living longer, but also because I want to reduce the decline of fluid IQ with increasing age.

Due to my conditions, though, I’ve never felt like I was in any comfort zone, which has perhaps forced me to try every possible approach that might make my life easier. I often start out with irrational approaches, but end up taking the approach that I perceive as most rational for myself. Of course, the sustainability of the action matters too (I realize that it might be utility-maximizing for me to exercise, for example, but I don’t exercise right now because I can’t trust myself to be consistent with exercising, at least while I’m still in school).

Anyways, I can talk a lot more. I love to overanalyze things. I also have a massive number of posts on the Internet, although many of them are beyond embarrassing. In the end, though, I only look for people who are open to anything and completely non-judgmental (although some people may look for certain “signals” when they’re looking for prospective contacts, to minimize the chances of meeting a contact with which one may fear wasting time on). Basically, my ideal model (for hypothesis generation) involves this: I try to type out some hypotheses, and then post them online, in hopes that someone might critique them. Many of my hypotheses will be junk, but that’s okay. As long as I can maximize the number of useful ideas that I can generate, I think I’ll have done something (although I don’t really have a place to post all my hypotheses, since I’ve been flamed many times for it [most people consider my posts tl;dr, and they also make fun of my autism]. And few people reply to my ideas precisely because I tend to study esoteric fields that they don’t care about, but also because I still haven’t found a forum where people actually respect ideas [even reddit and Physics Forums can be particularly cruel].)

Compared to most people, I tend to hit on correct ideas with lower accuracy (which inevitably results in people getting impatient with me/​flaming me). But I do believe that it’s easiest for me to form the best ideas when I post them when undeveloped (that way, sometimes, my shame at being wrong can actually motivate me to correct my ideas more quickly—this is why I frequently edit after posting—I have problems with alertness, so the adrenaline rush from being wrong can actually motivate me to finish things in less time). I consider time as the most important resource in the world, as the amount of material I could possibly learn is definitely worth thousands of lifetimes. And eventually, I do hit on some good ideas. In a sense, it’s like generating variation and selecting the best results out of such variation (sort of like evolution, albeit less blind). This is why I’m also intensely interested in genetic algorithms and data mining, since they tend to operate through somewhat similar mechanisms (this is also why I love the fourth paradigm so much). I’m extremely extremely open about myself and share virtually everything I do (although I generally don’t share when I believe that such sharing could lead to social rejection, so this usually makes me keep to myself). But yes, I explore *many* ideas and *many* topics precisely because I want to find the topic that would maximize my talent/​productivity (it’s hard due to my ADD, but it might result in a global maxima whereas others might stick with local maxima). Anyways, my only goal is to be interesting to other people (and to avoid taking on a job that might suppress my talents, so I really do want to go onto academia).

Of course, I will always have to find creative ways to make others feel happy. E.g. I can often come off as self-centered, and others will often have to be patient for me since I may not have the attention span to go through something in one go. But at the same time, I’m not in a comfortable situation, so if I find an opportunity I may never have again, I will recognize it for what it is and I’ll try to do everything I can to achieve it (which may require patience from other people, but I’ll really try not to disappoint them since I know the real consequences of it). In any case, I’m intensely interested in how people learn (and how people ideally learn), since my own difficulties with ADD have forced me to take untraditional routes (and in fact, there may be others who do best through the nontraditional route).

Anyways, I like this place precisely because it allows people to comment with the same username (so that we can track our old posts and those of people we’re interested in). I also have a facebook (http://​​www.facebook.com/​​simfish) and a google buzz profile (http://​​www.google.com/​​profiles/​​simfish). I generally keep everything about myself very public (to maximize the chances that some like-minded person might find me), although I may have to private them when I apply to grad schools. I’d really like to contribute to discussions, although I feel that I don’t have much to say right now, so I read more than comment.

My biggest irrationality is social anxiety/​rejection anxiety because I’ve been flamed/​rejected numerous times, so I’m scared of people. Other than that, though, I can be very rational.

So if you can relate, please comment. Or if you just want to share some ideas or add some comments. In any case, I do believe that rationality means acknowledging our human emotions (and in knowing that efficiency can be maximized when we do things in accordance to our emotions). Of course, these emotions can be corrected in many cases (I do think that anger is highly irrational in many cases, for example). I like the Internet a lot because it archives everything, so I can always revisit my old ideas simply by searching through them (whereas ideas communicated verbally cannot be searched, and easily get lost to the dust of memory).Anyways, a “search through someone’s old posts” feature is very useful here, since it makes it easier for people to identify similar minds (which can be important if people are very specialized)

I’m extremely impressed with how knowledgeable and interdisciplinary many of you are—I seem to know so much less than most of you, even though I seem to be far more interdisciplinary than everyone else I know.