What ever the case I am often exhausted, when dealing with such issues.
Good post though.
For instance certain high pitch sounds are terrible for my ears. Makes me lose focus, and makes my eyes close.
Its so bad, that I literally feel as though there is pain in my mind.
Schema? Or auditory thing?
It never happens with other sounds, just with this pitch.
Same problem with focus.
I can clearly be aware how the little tribes in my mind come together to defeat the invaders, but once the battle is over they part ways, and go back, or if they have to do something, the infighting, metaphorically starts.
For some odd reason though they have the oddest moments and reasons to come together.
Its not though where my rational mind wants. This explanation could make sense.
Its also extremely exhausting.
The sheer amount of mental effort that goes into this just feels like I am overclocking my mind just to do something that “might seem to outsiders” like am barely alive.
On further thinking I also have issue naming emotions or putting them in context.
What people say and feel is hard to match to my own “schema or whatever”.
Like I can feel sad, but what makes me feel that way?
For example I can be more productive when “depressed”, but those two don’t go together do they?
So you can see how being productive and sad at the same time can be pretty unsettling.
What ever the case I am often exhausted, when dealing with such issues.
Good post though.
For instance certain high pitch sounds are terrible for my ears. Makes me lose focus, and makes my eyes close.
Its so bad, that I literally feel as though there is pain in my mind.
Schema? Or auditory thing?
It never happens with other sounds, just with this pitch.
Same problem with focus.
I can clearly be aware how the little tribes in my mind come together to defeat the invaders, but once the battle is over they part ways, and go back, or if they have to do something, the infighting, metaphorically starts.
For some odd reason though they have the oddest moments and reasons to come together.
Its not though where my rational mind wants. This explanation could make sense.
Its also extremely exhausting.
The sheer amount of mental effort that goes into this just feels like I am overclocking my mind just to do something that “might seem to outsiders” like am barely alive.
On further thinking I also have issue naming emotions or putting them in context.
What people say and feel is hard to match to my own “schema or whatever”.
Like I can feel sad, but what makes me feel that way?
For example I can be more productive when “depressed”, but those two don’t go together do they?
So you can see how being productive and sad at the same time can be pretty unsettling.