this is just so thoroughly outside the domain of what would go in my own internal monologue it feels… rude? an empty attempt at caricature? a failure to understand what internal thoughts look like or otherwise an indication of a mind horribly alien to my own such that it bears no resemblance to real humans?
Interesting! Maybe there’s an experiential crux in there (so to speak)? My reader experience of this is that the first-person inner monologue is indeed very different from mine, but I perceive that as increasing the immersion and helping frame the story. To the extent that there’s a group of humans it saliently bears little resemblance to, I might think of that group as something like “humans who are psychologically ‘healthy’ in a certain way which varies across a wide spectrum, where social spheres with concentrated power may disproportionately attract people who are low on that spectrum”. I’m deliberately putting the main adjective in scare quotes there because in my fuzzy mental model, there isn’t really a clear delimiter between treating that trait cluster as a health indicator and treating it as intersubjective values dissonance; it feels consonant with but not directly targeting dark triad traits. But also, I’m not sure if you’re referring to the same thing I am or if it’s some other feature of the first-person description that bothers you.
FWIW, culturally speaking, I’ve been socially adjacent to Bay Area / SV-startup / “mainstream big tech” culture via other people, but not really been immersed in it—I’ve splashed around in the shallow part of that pool long ago, but for “try not to build the Torment Nexus” reasons (plus other unrelated stuff) I historically bounced away a lot as well and wound up in a sort of limbo. So that colors my impression quite a bit.
Interesting! Maybe there’s an experiential crux in there (so to speak)? My reader experience of this is that the first-person inner monologue is indeed very different from mine, but I perceive that as increasing the immersion and helping frame the story. To the extent that there’s a group of humans it saliently bears little resemblance to, I might think of that group as something like “humans who are psychologically ‘healthy’ in a certain way which varies across a wide spectrum, where social spheres with concentrated power may disproportionately attract people who are low on that spectrum”. I’m deliberately putting the main adjective in scare quotes there because in my fuzzy mental model, there isn’t really a clear delimiter between treating that trait cluster as a health indicator and treating it as intersubjective values dissonance; it feels consonant with but not directly targeting dark triad traits. But also, I’m not sure if you’re referring to the same thing I am or if it’s some other feature of the first-person description that bothers you.
FWIW, culturally speaking, I’ve been socially adjacent to Bay Area / SV-startup / “mainstream big tech” culture via other people, but not really been immersed in it—I’ve splashed around in the shallow part of that pool long ago, but for “try not to build the Torment Nexus” reasons (plus other unrelated stuff) I historically bounced away a lot as well and wound up in a sort of limbo. So that colors my impression quite a bit.