Not knowing you, but taking my best guess based on my model of what the mind of a person who wrote the words you wrote would look like, sounds like you are somewhere along the path but not yet to the point of having all the awakening insights. I say this because many stages along the path can look like full awakening because they are awakening but do not yet confer full understanding that persists outside the moment of insight because the habit of living awake is not yet fully stable.
Basically if you were enlightened I’d expect you to say slightly different things in a way that conceptualized your experience differently. If I were to go way out on a limb and speculate, my best guess is you are somewhere on 3rd path.
Not knowing you, but taking my best guess based on my model of what the mind of a person who wrote the words you wrote would look like, sounds like you are somewhere along the path but not yet to the point of having all the awakening insights. I say this because many stages along the path can look like full awakening because they are awakening but do not yet confer full understanding that persists outside the moment of insight because the habit of living awake is not yet fully stable.
Basically if you were enlightened I’d expect you to say slightly different things in a way that conceptualized your experience differently. If I were to go way out on a limb and speculate, my best guess is you are somewhere on 3rd path.