about a week ago I dreamed I had sex with my mom and last night I dreamed my mom had a dick (non-sexual) and my alcoholic narcissistic uncle was making fun of her (almost said him)/me. Wtf.
Notes from today’s appointment with my social worker Jenna
People (esp. males) aren’t actually staring me down. Even if they are, it doesn’t matter
I assumed my social worker only helps cause she ‘has to’ rather than ‘wants to’. According to one of the Relationship Science blog articles, that’s a sure fire indicator of avoidant attachment thinking
I feel a power differentia whenever I’m around someone who hasn’t been open and vulnerable around me and I have. However, being able to be vulnerable like that is really a strength.
My strategy to deal with anxious things is avoid them. If I’m avoiding, I’m probably anxious
Be responsve not reactive, that’s mindfulness
My goal is to learn from pat abd present experiences how to imtive my relationship, rather than from the theory of that field.
Meet peope with zest, have zest, don’t play hard to get, according to the psychlogy today long term relations article
Direct pickup lines dominate as openers, according to the Relationship Science blog articles
Am I just interested in health to one up my bro?
“I feel comfortable depending on relationships partners”—people with secure Attachment agree with that statement. I don’t. Get to that.
you can have a dream, but don’t expect it to come true—my housemate ‘A’
‘Get out of my way or I will literally kill you with the knife in the breast pocket of the shirt im wearing’ the writing on my sister’s custom ordered shirt
Feeling Lonely?. >If you’re single, doesn’t mean you’re not in a relationship—you’re just focussing on your most important relationship, the relationship with yourself....being lonely is a mindset, not a situation.
Next time you’re in transit, walking, whatever, you might like to try not to look at people to see if it will drain your will-power.
You cannot create happiness; you can only reveal the happiness that is already inside of you. Your very nature is unconditional happiness.
Things I learned from a men’s fitness magazine (jan 2016): (1) first 3 bites of food taste get then it’s all over. So, when you give into temptation proportion appropriately (2) wearing suits at work improves your career prospects (3) hungry women pick up on less romantic cues
Despite how great hiring sex is, I would probably have more fun spending the equivelant amount going to a concert like this. Now I don’t feel like I’m supressing my desire, just choosing the most pleasant options in life.
The whole universe culminates in my subjective personal experience. What a unifying thought.
I’m tired of all these fucgurls
can you share tips for how I can improve my relationship with myself? no my handsome friend, you already know how to love. I know that because there are people on this planet already enjoying your love every single day. All you gotta do, is point some of that love. Be nice to yourself, compliment yourself, trust yourself. Make time for yourself, act as if you are your own best friend...it is tricky to execute...‘you do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself.’
Let’s Just Say I’m Frankenstein’s Monster, and I’m Looking for My Creato
Magneto, I love that quote!
So I finally overcame my habit of checking out people,compulsively thanks to the wisdom of realising relationships are about compromise, hard work, and growth, rather than love at first site, and dramatic vulnerability.
When I feeling like looking up dumb stuff on youtube, instead I’ll look up this
Fun and silliness
HYDRAULIC PRESS CRUSHING HIPPO CRUSHING WATERMELON. Bear emoticon: ʕ·͡ᴥ·ʔ YESSSS hippo eats a watermelon THIS IS SO SATISFYING
Suprising academia
Experts believe the absence of laws against tobacco industry corporate social responsibility destabilises tobacco control efforts
Music from my housemates!
Birdy—Words as weapons
John Legend—Tonight (Best You Ever Had) ft. Ludacris
Some Japanese/Chinese song
テレサテン・時の流れに身をまかせ
天空之城 木吉他演奏曲
Dirty Dike—Hold my hands—Not from my housemates, but from the loudspeaker of a teenage looking patient at a mental health outpatient unit.
Lil wayne Office theme
Dream journal
about a week ago I dreamed I had sex with my mom and last night I dreamed my mom had a dick (non-sexual) and my alcoholic narcissistic uncle was making fun of her (almost said him)/me. Wtf.
Notes from today’s appointment with my social worker Jenna
People (esp. males) aren’t actually staring me down. Even if they are, it doesn’t matter
I assumed my social worker only helps cause she ‘has to’ rather than ‘wants to’. According to one of the Relationship Science blog articles, that’s a sure fire indicator of avoidant attachment thinking
I feel a power differentia whenever I’m around someone who hasn’t been open and vulnerable around me and I have. However, being able to be vulnerable like that is really a strength.
My strategy to deal with anxious things is avoid them. If I’m avoiding, I’m probably anxious
Be responsve not reactive, that’s mindfulness
My goal is to learn from pat abd present experiences how to imtive my relationship, rather than from the theory of that field.
Meet peope with zest, have zest, don’t play hard to get, according to the psychlogy today long term relations article
Direct pickup lines dominate as openers, according to the Relationship Science blog articles
Am I just interested in health to one up my bro?
“I feel comfortable depending on relationships partners”—people with secure Attachment agree with that statement. I don’t. Get to that.
Insight: personality
Depressive Narcissist
The Sadistic Narcissist
Narcissist’s Sadistic Inner Judge
Everyday people’s quotes
you can have a dream, but don’t expect it to come true—my housemate ‘A’
‘Get out of my way or I will literally kill you with the knife in the breast pocket of the shirt im wearing’ the writing on my sister’s custom ordered shirt
personal development
What It’s Like To Not Love Your Body
Feeling Lonely?. >If you’re single, doesn’t mean you’re not in a relationship—you’re just focussing on your most important relationship, the relationship with yourself....being lonely is a mindset, not a situation.
Next time you’re in transit, walking, whatever, you might like to try not to look at people to see if it will drain your will-power.
Reframe log
browsing Reddit is dumb .
You cannot create happiness; you can only reveal the happiness that is already inside of you. Your very nature is unconditional happiness.
Things I learned from a men’s fitness magazine (jan 2016): (1) first 3 bites of food taste get then it’s all over. So, when you give into temptation proportion appropriately (2) wearing suits at work improves your career prospects (3) hungry women pick up on less romantic cues
Despite how great hiring sex is, I would probably have more fun spending the equivelant amount going to a concert like this. Now I don’t feel like I’m supressing my desire, just choosing the most pleasant options in life.
The whole universe culminates in my subjective personal experience. What a unifying thought.
I’m tired of all these fucgurls
Magneto, I love that quote!
So I finally overcame my habit of checking out people,compulsively thanks to the wisdom of realising relationships are about compromise, hard work, and growth, rather than love at first site, and dramatic vulnerability.
When I feeling like looking up dumb stuff on youtube, instead I’ll look up this
Fun and silliness
HYDRAULIC PRESS CRUSHING HIPPO CRUSHING WATERMELON. Bear emoticon: ʕ·͡ᴥ·ʔ YESSSS hippo eats a watermelon THIS IS SO SATISFYING
Rapongi!
housework
I tried using wheat vinegar apple flavour from a Korean store to get rid of the lint in my wash, but it didn’t work.
That seems sane to me. You do indeed have a power differential.
Meh, not really. To me it’s backward thinking. Being so strong that it doesn’t matter if you’re vulnerable to other is the real strength.
How can that not be sexual?
Possibly meaning non-arousing? I do too sometimes have dreams related to sex, even about performing sex, where no excitement happens.