I like this post. But also the part of it I found most interesting was this footnote bit:
Loosely speaking, you’ve just turned your own conscious mind into an internal hostile telepath!
bc I think I do that kind of a lot, but also am somewhat sensitive to at least some kinds of things that feel like self-deception or thought-avoidance, and really dislike that feeling, so I do tend to probe at things that feel suspicious in that kind of way, which sometimes adds up to pretty unhelpful thought spirals where I’m chasing my thoughts and emotions around and getting kind of stuck in them. might be useful for me to try strategies where I let the avoidance exist, though I’m not sure how—if I’m at the point where I notice the hypothesis at all it’s a pretty unpleasant feeling. I guess “learn to tolerate uncertainty and confusion better” is already a thing I wanted to do, and relevant here.
I like this post. But also the part of it I found most interesting was this footnote bit:
bc I think I do that kind of a lot, but also am somewhat sensitive to at least some kinds of things that feel like self-deception or thought-avoidance, and really dislike that feeling, so I do tend to probe at things that feel suspicious in that kind of way, which sometimes adds up to pretty unhelpful thought spirals where I’m chasing my thoughts and emotions around and getting kind of stuck in them. might be useful for me to try strategies where I let the avoidance exist, though I’m not sure how—if I’m at the point where I notice the hypothesis at all it’s a pretty unpleasant feeling. I guess “learn to tolerate uncertainty and confusion better” is already a thing I wanted to do, and relevant here.