At least at my end, I’m pretty sure that part of my problem isn’t that signalling is causing me to override my real desires, it’s that there’s something about feeling that I have to signal leads to me not wanting to cooperate, even if the action is something that I would otherwise want to do, or at least not mind all that much.
Writing this has made the issue clearer for me than it’s been, but it’s not completely clear—I think there’s a combination of fear and anger involved, and it’s a goddam shame that my customers (a decent and friendly bunch) are activating stuff that got built up when I was a kid.
At least at my end, I’m pretty sure that part of my problem isn’t that signalling is causing me to override my real desires, it’s that there’s something about feeling that I have to signal leads to me not wanting to cooperate, even if the action is something that I would otherwise want to do, or at least not mind all that much.
Writing this has made the issue clearer for me than it’s been, but it’s not completely clear—I think there’s a combination of fear and anger involved, and it’s a goddam shame that my customers (a decent and friendly bunch) are activating stuff that got built up when I was a kid.