hmmm, i am massively, gigantically, unconfident in my writing ability, when i don’t have an interlocutor who i’m specifically writing stuff for, messaging, etc
I think this is a really, really, really, really big personal bottleneck. potentially trauma related from when my dad would make me do ‘handwriting’ and lines and make me write pages and pages and say my writing was terrible according to some arbitrary seeming (to me) thing about the ‘handwriting’.
potentially, a solution here, is to do writing, about things i actually care about, share it with someone who i respect and see as a senior figure and predict with my feelings of inconfidence earlier, what i think they’re going to say. i predict that they’ll say its ok, being nice and also have valid criticisms. and more that is also valid that they won’t say. and things that are good, that they won’t recognise, because there’s things that i recognise correctly as valuable, that they don’t, which i either lack the confidence to articulate why it’s good, or lack the knowledge, or more likely, lack the confidence/knowledge on how to convincingly articulate it to get past their barriers of having difficulty understanding and biases.
hmmm, i am massively, gigantically, unconfident in my writing ability, when i don’t have an interlocutor who i’m specifically writing stuff for, messaging, etc
I think this is a really, really, really, really big personal bottleneck.
potentially trauma related from when my dad would make me do ‘handwriting’ and lines and make me write pages and pages and say my writing was terrible according to some arbitrary seeming (to me) thing about the ‘handwriting’.
potentially, a solution here, is to do writing, about things i actually care about, share it with someone who i respect and see as a senior figure and predict with my feelings of inconfidence earlier, what i think they’re going to say. i predict that they’ll say its ok, being nice and also have valid criticisms. and more that is also valid that they won’t say. and things that are good, that they won’t recognise, because there’s things that i recognise correctly as valuable, that they don’t, which i either lack the confidence to articulate why it’s good, or lack the knowledge, or more likely, lack the confidence/knowledge on how to convincingly articulate it to get past their barriers of having difficulty understanding and biases.