I’ve gone from rock-bottom self-esteem and hopeless crying, to… rock-bottom self-esteem and StepfordSmiling. LessWrong has helped me become much less self-centered by providing the skills to quantify exactly how I am not, in fact, worth anything to anyone, and am, in fact, entitled to nothing.
I talk about transhumanism and cryonics instead of nihilism and suicide.
I went from feeling like I’m always in hostile territory waiting to die, to feeling like I’m always out in the cold looking in on something beautiful that will never include me.
I get much less enjoyment and relaxation from my passtimes because I’ve internalized the fact that escapism isn’t.
It took an hour to compose this post instead of ten minutes, because I have a more realistic expectation of the results.