I would like to say that I share your strong preference for being second in command over first and would like to add a datapoint that I find being first in command to be really stressful in a way that doesn’t hit me or mess with my decision making until after I relinquish the role, at which point it hits hard, and am curious if that happens or has happened to you. (Examples; Being first responder in a medical emergency and keeping everything going right up until the victim had arrived at the E.R. and then throwing up and shaking for the rest of the night, leading a major college class project for a semester that went really well and then essentially shutting down and hiding in my room for a week.)
If I were trying to do what you seem to be trying to do, I would be setting myself up for a major crash once I’d brought the experiment to a close or handed off the baton. Obviously our minds are different in many ways, but I figured it was worth checking to see if you had that issue and found a solution that might be stealable.
I would like to say that I share your strong preference for being second in command over first and would like to add a datapoint that I find being first in command to be really stressful in a way that doesn’t hit me or mess with my decision making until after I relinquish the role, at which point it hits hard, and am curious if that happens or has happened to you. (Examples; Being first responder in a medical emergency and keeping everything going right up until the victim had arrived at the E.R. and then throwing up and shaking for the rest of the night, leading a major college class project for a semester that went really well and then essentially shutting down and hiding in my room for a week.)
If I were trying to do what you seem to be trying to do, I would be setting myself up for a major crash once I’d brought the experiment to a close or handed off the baton. Obviously our minds are different in many ways, but I figured it was worth checking to see if you had that issue and found a solution that might be stealable.