I assumed that one way to dip my toes in the water would be to talk about myself for a bit.
I am doing a degree in the health sciences, and it has worn me down psychologically ever since I got in, solely because it relies a bit too much on rote learning, not divergent thinking. Things are as they are, and there are many, so it seems like the most reasonable approach. Still, I had gotten in expecting something sci-fi-esque, like Biohackers or whatever few biohacking documentaries I had watched during the pandemic.
I did not struggle academically in secondary school, but I did feel “unchallenged” because I felt like I was both able and willing to learn more on the topics I was mostly interested in (Mathematics, Chemistry, Physics), despite my teachers being reluctant to find me additional resources (and without additional pay, of course). This common occurrence, this feeling of untapped potential, became more apparent during the pandemic. Pairing that with my growing interest in “changing myself,” this time through biohacking, what once felt like an itch to “do more,” turned into a snarled ball of frustration.
I don’t particularly remember how I found this website. I’ve seen it mentioned here and there and the name is easy to recall.
I enjoy the thread-like way of communicating with people. I did give Discord servers a try for “science stuff” but it would eventually become problematic to go over countless messages across different text channels, as compared to working with sites like X or Reddit. Unfortunately, Reddit is heavily censored, and I cannot access it through a VPN; and X, of course, only allows for rather short posts (for free users, at least), which is a deal-breaker for me.
I’ve been interested in AI for several years now. I recall getting into it in 2023, trying either GPT-3.5 or GPT-4. ChatGPT was the main one I used, until the output started to become worse over time, which prompted me to pay them twenty bucks a month (April 2025). Unsurprisingly, I felt like the output, despite having paid twenty bucks, was either of the same quality or slightly worse, too. Such resentment caused me to move on, to give other AI’s a try.
I have also been interested in biomedical research, but not enough to sit down and read an actual paper. I wish to change that. But the main concepts I’ve been amazed by are brain-computer interfaces, polymers in biomedical research, genetic engineering, and, perhaps the most sci-fi of all, synthetic organs.
A clear bias I display, that I will probably maintain for the next few years, is this knee-jerk reaction towards everything I read: “Okay, but how does this scale?,” or “Okay, but how does this apply to the real world?” Although I bear no grudge towards any particular teacher or professor of mine, since I can kind of guess where they’re coming from, I became rather disillusioned upon concluding that if I wish to learn, it is most likely to happen on my own, in my room, alone. Such way of thinking entertains self-alienation—a process where I further differentiate myself and speak in an increasingly odd manner, coming across an overly eccentric individual instead of a mildly shy guy.
I don’t intend to make best friends here, but I am tired of discussing things I care about with artificial intelligence. It may not surprise many when I say that self-alienation is only partially true as one refuses to communicate with humans, and leans onto AI instead. It is not a fear of rejection but, to me, a logical conclusion that, simply, sometimes people don’t care; and AI is programmed to fake as though it does. In a non-psychotic sense, I’ve managed to display more curiosity with AI than I have with humans in years and, for that, I am grateful.
Hello, everyone.
I assumed that one way to dip my toes in the water would be to talk about myself for a bit.
I am doing a degree in the health sciences, and it has worn me down psychologically ever since I got in, solely because it relies a bit too much on rote learning, not divergent thinking. Things are as they are, and there are many, so it seems like the most reasonable approach. Still, I had gotten in expecting something sci-fi-esque, like Biohackers or whatever few biohacking documentaries I had watched during the pandemic.
I did not struggle academically in secondary school, but I did feel “unchallenged” because I felt like I was both able and willing to learn more on the topics I was mostly interested in (Mathematics, Chemistry, Physics), despite my teachers being reluctant to find me additional resources (and without additional pay, of course). This common occurrence, this feeling of untapped potential, became more apparent during the pandemic. Pairing that with my growing interest in “changing myself,” this time through biohacking, what once felt like an itch to “do more,” turned into a snarled ball of frustration.
I don’t particularly remember how I found this website. I’ve seen it mentioned here and there and the name is easy to recall.
I enjoy the thread-like way of communicating with people. I did give Discord servers a try for “science stuff” but it would eventually become problematic to go over countless messages across different text channels, as compared to working with sites like X or Reddit. Unfortunately, Reddit is heavily censored, and I cannot access it through a VPN; and X, of course, only allows for rather short posts (for free users, at least), which is a deal-breaker for me.
I’ve been interested in AI for several years now. I recall getting into it in 2023, trying either GPT-3.5 or GPT-4. ChatGPT was the main one I used, until the output started to become worse over time, which prompted me to pay them twenty bucks a month (April 2025). Unsurprisingly, I felt like the output, despite having paid twenty bucks, was either of the same quality or slightly worse, too. Such resentment caused me to move on, to give other AI’s a try.
I have also been interested in biomedical research, but not enough to sit down and read an actual paper. I wish to change that. But the main concepts I’ve been amazed by are brain-computer interfaces, polymers in biomedical research, genetic engineering, and, perhaps the most sci-fi of all, synthetic organs.
A clear bias I display, that I will probably maintain for the next few years, is this knee-jerk reaction towards everything I read: “Okay, but how does this scale?,” or “Okay, but how does this apply to the real world?” Although I bear no grudge towards any particular teacher or professor of mine, since I can kind of guess where they’re coming from, I became rather disillusioned upon concluding that if I wish to learn, it is most likely to happen on my own, in my room, alone. Such way of thinking entertains self-alienation—a process where I further differentiate myself and speak in an increasingly odd manner, coming across an overly eccentric individual instead of a mildly shy guy.
I don’t intend to make best friends here, but I am tired of discussing things I care about with artificial intelligence. It may not surprise many when I say that self-alienation is only partially true as one refuses to communicate with humans, and leans onto AI instead. It is not a fear of rejection but, to me, a logical conclusion that, simply, sometimes people don’t care; and AI is programmed to fake as though it does. In a non-psychotic sense, I’ve managed to display more curiosity with AI than I have with humans in years and, for that, I am grateful.