Hey VM, I’m seriously interested in what happened in your head back then. I’m trying to make sense of my own experience from last year’s lockdown and this is the first time I read something that reminds me of it. Can I please ask you a few things before I share my own experience?
1. Was your experience gradual? 2. Did it have a clear culmination and then a stop, or did it pass away slowly? 3. Were there any recurrent themes to your thought, or did they feel random?
You can’t even begin to imagine the waking heavens and hells that start unfolding inside your skull. At times I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry.
4. Do you remember anything you did to anchor your mind? (Something that helped the feeling of completely losing it) 5. Did these intense feelings come and go? Was there a regularity to the pattern?
But there is also an observer that can detach and not identify with what the mind is doing.
6. Did this observer first appear in your mind after this experience? 7. What did the fact that you discovered this observer mean for your idea of self? Was your past perception of self replaced by this observer?
I’m sorry for the barrage of questions, but I’m very hopeful I can learn from your answers. It’s already hard not to obscure the memory too much and sharing what happened to myself beforehand could make us somewhat match the experiences, that’s why I’m holding back. I’ll share my experience after (or if) you find some time to answer.
Thanks for sharing and looking forward to hearing more!
Hey VM, I’m seriously interested in what happened in your head back then. I’m trying to make sense of my own experience from last year’s lockdown and this is the first time I read something that reminds me of it. Can I please ask you a few things before I share my own experience?
1. Was your experience gradual?
2. Did it have a clear culmination and then a stop, or did it pass away slowly?
3. Were there any recurrent themes to your thought, or did they feel random?
You can’t even begin to imagine the waking heavens and hells that start unfolding inside your skull. At times I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry.
4. Do you remember anything you did to anchor your mind? (Something that helped the feeling of completely losing it)
5. Did these intense feelings come and go? Was there a regularity to the pattern?
But there is also an observer that can detach and not identify with what the mind is doing.
6. Did this observer first appear in your mind after this experience?
7. What did the fact that you discovered this observer mean for your idea of self? Was your past perception of self replaced by this observer?
I’m sorry for the barrage of questions, but I’m very hopeful I can learn from your answers. It’s already hard not to obscure the memory too much and sharing what happened to myself beforehand could make us somewhat match the experiences, that’s why I’m holding back. I’ll share my experience after (or if) you find some time to answer.
Thanks for sharing and looking forward to hearing more!