In addition to safety and contact, another dynamic was that I was generally not S1 expecting much value to come out of Dragon Army, so chafing more within the system seemed like pain, effort, and time spent for little expected gain.
Stag hunts, anyone?
Edit: Though, I will note that it can be hard to find the space between “I’m damaging the group by excluding my optimization power from the process” and “I’m being a Red Knight here and should be game for whatever the commander decides.” It may seem like the obvious split is “expressive in discussion and game in the field” but discussion time is actually really valuable. So it seems like the actual thing is “be game until the cost to you becomes great enough that something needs to change”. If you reduce the minimum size of misfit enough, then it becomes intractable to deal with everyone’s needs. But then you have to figure out if a recent failure was a result of things being seriously broken or just a sign that you need to Be Better in some operationalized and “doable” way. When do you bring up the problem? It’s hard.
Endorsed.
In addition to safety and contact, another dynamic was that I was generally not S1 expecting much value to come out of Dragon Army, so chafing more within the system seemed like pain, effort, and time spent for little expected gain.
Stag hunts, anyone?
Edit: Though, I will note that it can be hard to find the space between “I’m damaging the group by excluding my optimization power from the process” and “I’m being a Red Knight here and should be game for whatever the commander decides.” It may seem like the obvious split is “expressive in discussion and game in the field” but discussion time is actually really valuable. So it seems like the actual thing is “be game until the cost to you becomes great enough that something needs to change”. If you reduce the minimum size of misfit enough, then it becomes intractable to deal with everyone’s needs. But then you have to figure out if a recent failure was a result of things being seriously broken or just a sign that you need to Be Better in some operationalized and “doable” way. When do you bring up the problem? It’s hard.